Wow!

Way to busy!! But I wanted to drop in and Wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I hope to have a year wrap up soon! Have been super busy with work.. leaving me just exhausted!  Soon <3 p="">

~Nicki

The Holiday season.

I'm going to attempt to throw together a blog post. Lets just put it this way.. These past few months has been a whirlwind! Every since October its like it hasn't slowed down!! I haven't felt much like blogging.. because there really hasn't been much to blog about.. Other than the fact me and Danny are trying to work on getting back to where we were.

While he did his first year at the feds his schedule was all over the place. We rarely had the same days off.. I got used to being by myself and just letting Danny take care of the bills.. while I took care of the house.. We both got complacent where we were.. so when we did spend time together, all we did was argue and bicker.. We were both at our wits end.. and one point.. I was just so frustrated and done.. I mentioned a horrible word.. I regret it now. We both needed to take a step back and asses what was happening. We are doing a lot better now, snapping is starting to subside and we are thinking before we just bark at each other and have calmer 'converstations'. We still have a ways to go but we will get there!

As for baby making.. I wanted to try naturally again.. BUT Of course schedules and timing is never right.. I tried really hard month before last.. of course nothing occurred. We're just living right now enjoying things.. of course it sucks.. but right now we can't do anything.. so we just are right now.. and that's it on that... We will just keep doing what we're doing!

The holidays have approached SO fast.. since Thanksgiving was so late this year it has just has creeped up really fast.  Almost all my shopping is done, thankfully we aren't going all out this year.. well maybe with Danny LOL.

I'll call that good for now.. Hopefully to update more later.. Danny just got home with dinner :)

Alive.

I swear.. I'm still alive.. trying to survive the holidays at work.. and at home.. Not much going on here just stagnant. Dealing with foot pain while walking 5+ miles a day is really starting to bug me.. ugh Dr. I see in my future for this..

Update soon!

Avoiding....

Kinda avoiding my blog right now.. because well nothing exciting is going on and everything just sucks right now. Mainly because its the holiday season at work.. and everyone is all grouchy already and its Only the 1st of November! Come people.. you know that big businesses put out this shit early.. If you don't like it keep it to yourself, or don't come in.  Plain and simple..

   Like today I have I don't know how many people I heard go ' Its not even Thanksgiving' and then this old guy stops by where i'm putting up Christmas stuff of course just stops and shakes his head..I go on to say hey at least we're not Hobby Lobby and put there stuff up in July' He goes to say ' I don't like shopping here and I don't like buying stuff'  I just walked away and thought to myself .. well you sure have a cart full.

Ugh.. Just so frustrated.

Small bathroom is almost finished. Need baseboards, which we have, just need cut.

I've been having horrible mood swings lately.. and that's about all there is to that.

I should mention that Rocky had a horrible bout of Diarrhea...Oh it was horrible.. 91 dollars later and we had no horrible smelling liquid squirts. Oh it was horrible..I thought my new carpet was ruined.. I will vouch for this carpet that is for sure!!! You can't even tell :)!

I think thats about it.. Not much exciting going right now.. Holidays are in Full swing.. Not sure i'm ready.


~Nicki

Can I go hide in a hole??

So since we got back everything has just gone down hill.. Danny works for Department of Justice.. which is part of the federal government.. So that means NO paycheck for us! Which really blows.. it comes at a rough time of year... we're just scraping by.. and then this whole baby boom..is just depressing. I just can't handle this anymore...

I'm over trying for a baby.. last month we had sex alot even on my fertile days and NOTHING... It just SUCKS.  Everyone else is getting pregnant and moving on and having more babies.. Just found or April is preggers with number 2.

This road just seems like its getting harder and harder, and uphill climb and were no where near the end.  We can't even start trying again because of the no money thing.. nothing in savings.. bad shape.. and its only going to get worse before it gets better. I just can't put it into words how frustrated I am and how I hurt..

I hurt all the time.. every time I see a baby and just wish I could have just one.. and give it my unconditional love.. I want to adopt so bad but we have no money to do that either..  I wish something would happen for the good.. we have been ready to be parents for over 5 years.. and in that 5 years we have barely had a glimmer of hope.. 1 positive pregnancy test and 1 miscarriage all in the same week.. I honestly don't know what we have done to deserve this.. I just wish I knew so we could change it..


~Nicki

Day 6!!

This was the day we did Magic Kingdom ALL day! I kinda wish we would have done a little more.. but I had a goal.. Eat at Be Our Guest, the new restaurant in  New Fantasy land! Which we did.. both Lunch AND Dinner!! We did ride all the rides we wanted to ride :) Should have rode Splash Mountain twice haha!

 Walking in we got to meet Marie! So cute! She wanted to eat my ears ;)

 I don't think this magical view will ever get old.. I love it!

 Still have to relook at the pictures the photo pass people took and the ones they took on our camera! 

 On the Carousel! Always fun!

 This is the entrance to the Be Our Guest Restaurant we got there around 10 ish and were told to get in line for lunch :) We took pictures first! They let us look around a bit inside 

 It looks JUST like the movie.. it was amazing.

 We didn't stray far :) Potty break.. and then Gaston showed up! He was SO in Character.. it was hilarious! 

 Lunch.. was delish!! I want that sandwich again.. It was a hot turkey sandwich on yummy garlic bread .. just thinking of it is mouth watering!

 I gave in to Danny wanting to ride Dumbo.. LOL

 This was after Dinner, he was our 'Host' For dinner there of course!! Came barging out haha! After we ate we could meet The Beast! We literally waited about  1 1/2 hrs.. to see if we could get in because they put out the cancellation list at around 3:45.. Low and behold they got us in!! I was so excited! But kinda bummed we had to just sit.. for fear of someone getting there first! It was worth it, wish we could have put our name on a list! Looking back.. I just wish we would have walked around more :/

 I want this blown up and Framed.. Danny took this... it is my fave.

 This is the best Disney Parade EVER!

One last kiss in the Magic Kingdom! 

We had so much fun and instantly decided we wanted to go back next year!! But then.. this happened.. Obama lama ding dong went and shut down the government because of his stupid health care... SO Danny isn't receiving a pay check at the moment.. he will get 8 days worth on this next check and don't know when the next one will come.. we have delayed our Security loan, car loan and are getting paper for the house.. everything else.. is pretty much on me.. Talk about super stress!! So we will see what happens.. we still want to go.. but Christmas may not happen as of now we wait and see! 

~Nicki 

Days 5

Good lord.. Life right now feels like kinda a whirl wind.. Its going by to fast and at the same time it feels like nothing is happening. Anyways.. Sad news at the end.

Day 5 we went to Epcot! It was defiantly our most relaxing day! We slept in.. the World showcase doesn't open till 11 am.. so we got their around 9ish.. we just walked ;) Once we got there we walked to the front of the park and got our pic in front of the ball and did some of the rides such as Nemo and Friends Under the Seas :) Which used to be called the living seas!

The coolest thing we did in Epcot was in Japan.. I got to pick and oyster and they opened it to reveal a pearl!! It was so cool :) I had it put in a necklace! ( I started writing this a few days ago and got side tracked and now i'm super sleepy!)

This was such a fun ride! Every time i've been since it opened it was always closed due to the weather! First time on it! 

Nemo! The Seagulls made my day lol! They go Mine.. Mine Mine Mine!

 Fun in Mexico ;) It about swallowed me haha

 Gotta meet Donald Duck!

 Across the lake :)

 The oyster I picked was right in the middle laying on top of the other! 

 I was so excited!! I got a 7mm greenish/blue pearl :)!!

 I must have been super hot cause my face is all red! No one knew who she was!! Princess Aurora of course!

This was the Coral Reef restaurant I had the best lobster pasta ever! We actually missed our reservations for this one..I was so upset cause I figured we wouldn't have gotten in.. But the lady was so nice.. we had to wait a bit but it was so worth it! We were supposed to be there at 4:20, Danny never rechecked so we thought it was 6:20.. but it worked out! 

The fireworks were an awesome show! We talked with this older couple until the started as people tried to push their way into our spots!! After dinner we found a spot on the bridge over between the UK and France :) Great spot!!  After that we walked over and did Soarin' and went back to the hotel.. We were pooped LOL! Didn't think we could walk anymore, but still had one more day!!

Since there alot of pictures in this post.. I'll make the last one and post later :)

Day 3 and 4!

Sorry a little while between posts! Gotta love that thing we call work!

So on Day 2 we went to 3 Different parks! It was a very busy day and we walked about 15 miles that day! Crazy!

We started off at Animal Kingdom in the morning.. I chose to wear sandals this day because it was going to be our shortest morning with a break in the afternoon before Micky's Not So Scary Halloween Party! Bad Idea.... lol we walked fast to the safari.. bad idea. But it still turned out pretty good :)

The safari was awesome! Since it was early enough alot of the animals were out!!

 In Front of the Tree of Life!

 Tree Of Life!

 Hippos!

 Giraffe! They had 3 new babies, since it was early we got a few close ups!! (Dannys phone in the picture haha)

The White Rhinos, which are new.. strolled right on by the truck!! 

The animal kingdom looked a lot different from what I remembered it. But I guess thats a good thing! It was so nice this time of year, hardly any waits.. not super crowded! Wonderful! I think the longest wait time was like an hour, but we got a fast pass for it and went and rode Expedition Everest, which wasn't as scary as the last time I rode it hahah we were at the very end! We had lots of fun! Dinosaur was a very rough ride lol being jammed back and fourth and it smelled lol!

After walking around and taking pictures and doing some rides we headed back to the room around 2:30-3 and then walked over to Epcot for dinner at Bergarten.. I probably totally spelled that wrong lol! It was in Germany, it was ok not the best food i've ever eaten.. minus the potato salad!! Yum. After that. We walked back to the hotel and got ready for the Halloween Party!! 

It was so much fun I hope we get to do it again sometime!! 

 I wore the buns for like.. an hour and had to take them off.. LOL Sweat central.. and Danny wanted me to wear a wig!?

 That sight will never get old <3 p="">

 I wore my crocs instead of tennis shoes.. because they felt better than my sandals or tennis.. LOL

 I traded the buns for the Ears ;)

 The music from the parade has been stuck in my head lol

 I have  a TON Of pictures but of course don't wanna overload you ;)

 Kids at heart!

The rarity of the evening! All Seven Dwarfs!  This was one of the things I knew we had to do LOL besides the parade, trick or treating and fireworks!  So we hopped in line and got our picture with them! The Fireworks were awesome! We got stuck in behind the castle in New Fantasyland, which actually turned out pretty cool we were in the middle of them! It was a lot of fun! 

We went back to the room and crashed.. we got to sleep in a little bit since there wasn't much to do at epcot as far as rides and the World Showcase didn't open until 11. So we did a few rides and lunch before walking into the World Showcase :)

More on Epcot next time!

Can we go back yet?? Days 1 and 2 :)

We got home on Saturday night.. we had a very good trip! The flight down was so uneventful it was awesome! Other than being tired and having shitty side effects from my medicine all was good.. I had to stop taking my medicine.. because 2 days before we left I got 4 hours total of sleep in 2 days.. Yeah I wasn't a nice person LOL. So insomnia was one side effect.. then I felt like I couldn't breath or catch my breath on the plane..omg the worst.

 When we got there.. we got to our room and had about 35-40 min before my sister and her family came down to meet us for dinner!! So I took a quick shower and then we headed down to the board walk :) Oh it was beautiful!!  Loved our hotel!

 Me, Angie, Lee, Connor and Madison

 Danny, Me, Angie, Connor and Madison

The View from our room! If you look straight ahead you can see the Epcot ball!

We were about a 10 min walk from the backside of Epcot and a 15-20 min walk to Hollywood Studios :)

Dinner was fabulous! My niece and nephew are the cutest things ever. They warmed up to us fast which made me happy! We had dinner and then walked all the way around the boardwalk which was nice! We will get to see them again in March because they are coming out here! That's exciting :). That night we went to Downtown Disney.. It was super busy there because everyone can go there! I had Ghiradehli Ice cream... Yum. We didn't even attempt the Lego store.. because another symptom was anxiety.. which I was having a bunch of.. and shortness of breath.. so we called it a night around 10 ish and caught a bus back to the resort and hoped down to the pool for a quick swim!  After that we called it a night :)

The next morning we headed to Hollywood studios! I'm not a huge fan of this park.. Only for Indian Jones and Star Wars lol and the shows most of the rides are outdated. But it still nice to walk around :). We had dinner at Mama Melrose.. OMG it was to DIE for! Best steak ever.. 

 At our resort that morning before heading over!

 At the entrance :)

 The hat!

 We got to meet Mike and Sully from Monsters U (Sully even hat the retainer LOL)

And Fantasia Mickey :) !!

We were pretty dead by the end of this day.. You walk alot.. LOL Danny spent a ton of money in the Star Wars store hahah. I did make a little R2D2 guy :) he was cute! Danny made his own light saber and a Yoda R2D2!  This was the night I decided to stop taking my medicine cause.. the side effects were not treating me well. The Fantasmic show was pretty sweet :) We were going to ride Tower of Terror.. because I never have.. but then Danny wasn't feeling well so we skipped it.. Maybe next year! 

That's all for now!! Don't want to make this post so huge its too long to read :) I'll do Animal Kingdom and Mickey's Not So Scary Halloween Party  next time!! And I'll eventually just do and all pictures post!

~Nicki 

PS: My baby dog gets neutered tomorrow :( Poor Rocky!! 

3 days!!!

We have 3 days until vacation and 4 days till Disney!! Cannot wait! So I better update this thing while I have some form of a blog post in my head, and before we leave because I will not have time!!


This past weekend was a good one :) We went shopping! I was excited LOL haven't gone shopping for anything fun in a while! We have scrimped and saved to be able to go for having just decided to go right after the new year. I think? We are taking just about 1000 dollars with us :) of course some of that is for extras such as food at airport and baggage fees and all that good stuff.  Being the shoppy person that I am hahah I'm afraid we don't have enough! But I just have to think to myself.. we only have so much room and we plan on going back next year as a whole family thing :D !

I don't remember if I mentioned that I finally got my hutches from mom and dad.. Love them and they  are all put together :) Now I just need a curio cabinet for my other wall in the living room.. the blank space is kinda annoying me. I need to get my spare room cleaned up so I can get to my sewing machine and make my pillows and fix the stuff that is piling up LOL That will be my mission when we get back!

Rocky and Wrangler will be up at my parents for the week.. I'm so scared Rocky will destroy something! Or be a pain because he is so stubborn and sometimes doesn't listen! But they will have his kennel and a huge yard and Bailey LOL ! They are gonna try and go for walks..Rocky is awesome on a leash but if he sees something he will pull your arm off unless you make him sit or yank to correct him. But i'm sure he will be fine.. getting way to many treats from Grandma and Grandpa lol.

I'm also worried about being delayed at the airport like last time :/ we spent 10 hours in Dallas it was not fun.. it ruined our whole week there because we wanted to go to Downtown Disney.. We're hoping this time we get to! If we have delays I want them on the way back!! Plus this time we are flying out of Houston and with a different airline lol.. Please pray for safe travel and no delays!! Oh lord please!! That is all we ask for!!

It should be pretty slow and relaxing at Disney because this is one of the lowest tourist times :) I wonder if it will be like having the park to ourself? LOL Probably not but might not be as busy as when we went on our Honeymoon!  Since we are going to the Mickey's Not So Scary Halloween Party.. we're Dressing up... I'm going to be Leia and Danny is gonna be a Jedi LOL, Honestly I hate dressing up but since its for Disney ;)

Went to the Dr yesterday.. because of my allergies being all lovely.. I decided to make sure I didn't have a sinus infection .. (been super clogged and pressure) She wasn't sure if it was or wasn't a sinus infection.. so I got anitbiotics anyways to be better safe than sorry and  a prescription for Singulair!  Even tho I bought Allegra D.. we will give it a go and see how I do! So far I've taken one tablet and I feel pretty good :) Had a mild sore throat this morning, but that can be the antibiotic or sigulair oh goody LOL.

And of course Danny is sick with a summer cold or something. Ugh.. Not cool!!

Well I think thats it for now!! Till I'm back from DisneyWorld!!

~Nicki

2 weeks.

And I will be on a plane.. well at this time.. just about to land in Orlando. Woo! It really can't come fast enough.. I'm at the end of my rope and need something to get away.. Its my 2 days off and all I really wanna be somewhere other than here.

Haven't been doing much but working.. and working some more. My mind totally went blank... Oh yeah.. I really need to go over and see April and Chloe. I got some outfits for her :) Can't help myself I don't have anyone else to buy for! Maybe tomorrow when Danny gets off. I wanna put my hutch together tonight, finally got them from my parents.

I've been so tired and groggy lately.. because my allergies have been terrible.. my nose has been clogged.. especially when I sleep! Ugh.. I wake up once or twice and it takes forever to get my nose UNCLOGGED!  Then I fall back asleep till like 930 10 :/ doesn't make for a very productive day!  Right now i'm tired.. Ugh.


There is so much I want to talk about but my brian is not with me right now. So.. more later.. maybe!

~Nicki

Squeee!!!

Exactly ONE MONTH From today I will be on a plane to Disney World!! So excited to go again! Its been way to long... AND I get to see my Sister, BIL and Niece and Nephew ... I've never met my Nephew.. and haven't seen my niece sine she was 9 months.. she will be 6 Sept 25 AHHH!!


Life is Crazy.

PS: Danny Sprained his ankle pretty good.. and have I ever mentioned .. he is STUBBORN.

PPS: I have to work at 9 am tomorrow.. ew.. SO I need to go to bed.. which is ok because i'm tired.

Goodnight!

~Nicki

Super Duper Lazy.

Oops I slept till almost 10 today!! I woke up at 8 intended to sleep for just a few more min.. guess I was tired!!

So... lately I've been dwelling on whether or not to do another IVF or embryo adoption.. Part of me says just go 100% for embryo adoption.. its easier on my body vs. another IVF. Embryo adoption we get all their left over embryos, IVF unless my eggs cooperate we get nothing after wards.. Sooo.. yeah my whole thing i'm stuck on is.. a Biological child.. Granted I could love any child like its my own.. But the fact that I may have to explain to a child one day.. I carried you but you aren't really mine? I probably could in the future.. but the thought of it right now scares the daylights out of me.. I guess if I wasn't scared tho i'd be weird ;)

Not to mention after I get another lap.. Danny says we should do it when we get back from Disney. Not against it but..its in the middle of the Holiday season.. and we now have a new leave process at work. Ew. It does not sound like fun.. so i'll have to get information on that! We will do a few IUIs and maybe a miracle will occur??

I started supplements again this time a few different ones. Started Vitamin E, Evening Primrose oil and a vitamin for my hair and such! I will add Red Clove and Red Raspberry Leaf  ( when I find them!) and then CoQ-10 again! And gotta get Danny his again too.

I need to get cleaning the spare room today.. I'm itching to sew my pillows for my couch!! Plus have a bunch of other stuff I need to attempt! Carpet in living room and dining room gets replaced on Wednesday and then next weekend I can go get my China Hutch from my moms!

When Danny gets home were going to go to Wally in Pueblo West and see if they have the blender I want and the pot Danny broke that I JUST bought and it was our last one. Sad day...

On a random note.. me and Danny just had our 6 year anniversary.. Um.. Wow. Really!? Crazy to think how long we have been together!  We have made quite the life here in our little house :) 2 lazy dogs and  3 even lazier kitties.. ( I want another kitten.. yeah I know i'm crazy.. call it my mothering instinct). << Danny doesn't know that yet LOL!

Well seeing as how its 12:40 I guess I should get cracking and do something besides eat breakfast and do the dishes and play Farmville 2.  Its just a lazy day.. Maybe I'll go check the garden to see if there is any yummy ready to eat!

~Nicki

Here's the Scoop.

So.. We've been trying to stay busy and frankly it doesn't look like were getting anywhere. Probably because we do not see eachother.. Danny will be off by 3 pm today and tomorrow... Depending on the weather will decide if we finish painting the living room or do more of the patio. Supposed to rain. Which we have been getting alot of lately!! But its making the weeds grow in my garden like CRAZY. We just weeded last weekend.. and had to do it again yesterday... I'll finish it today.


I finally wrote a list for Danny of all the stuff that needs to be done LOL lets see if he does any of it ;).  He finally called a few banks the other day. The only real answer we got is we don't know how much we can get until our house is appraised.. which to get the amount we want.. it has to appraise at 150. HA. Soo.. I could be totally right in the fact we may be royally screwed. But I guess we would be happy with whatever we get. I don't think any one would give us a personal loan for 35 grand? Didn't think so LOL.

Ugh I feel like i'm all over the place.. in my head I am all worked out lol! Don't you ever wish you were as productive as your brain is when you think of what you wanna do the next day or the things your wanna say?? Yeah That always happens to me.. it never occurs the way I think it should lol!

I feel like I have so much more to say.. but lots of stuff to do around the house.. more weeding, laundry and getting things back together..

Sorry for being so boring lately ;) Hopefully wanna get some pictures up of what we've done soon!

~Nicki

So Lost.

I hate not knowing where everything is going.. how its going to turn out.. where to go next. Just lost and confused.. I want to move on SO bad.. but we have to get things done in order to move on.

~We need a garage. Period. Dot. End of story.

~Painting. ( yeah i'm the person who paints after new carpet is installed haha)

~Finish the Kitchen ( this is the only major thing left)

~Railing on the porch and finish back patio

~ Now apparently we need to get base boards.. because of the new carpet...Which by the way has a hole in it!! How awesome is THAT!?

~Get everything organized and put back.. which cannot happen until the carpet in living room with hole is replaced. Hopefully in the next couple weeks.

~A ton of little crap..

~Vacation.. is it September yet?

~After vacation.. see about getting equity out of our house for SOMETHING. Either more IUIs, IVF or Embryo Adoption.

~I want another lap done.. like today. It is eating at me to know if this is truly my problem.

I have so much more I want to say  but its a giant jumble in my head and I never have enough time to write it! We've been busy and when we are ... I'm not on the computer. I need to post some pictures of whats been going on.. I feel like I love my house again with everything that has been going on and getting done.

Now I just need a vacation. Pronto.

~Nicki

I guess I could update this thing!

Sorry for the lack of updates.. been busy around here working and not seeing my husband.. which is really starting to take its toll.. we are at each others throats lately and I do not like it :( not to mention the 'spark' has kinda gone away... We're gonna try and work on it... but its hard when we hardly see each other except when we are sleeping or saying Hi and Bye. We really need to get away.. September cannot get here fast enough.. I'm at the burnt out stage at work.. I need a break. Like NOW. Before the craziness of the Holidays get here.

Carpet goes in tomorrow!!!  As things go back in place we are going to rearrange and purge.. I have so much stuff.. like alot. Especially clothes! Holy moly the clothes! I just need to let go.. alot is outdated.. at least for my age.. Most is from HS which next year will be 10 YEARS. OMG *die*  Plus we are going to move the cats room into the spare bed room and then just rearrange furniture in between rooms and such. So.. if we ever have kids... its not covered in hair, smelly and and barfy lol!  I do have rugs for the cats room and under my dining table.  They are indoor/ outdoor but I got them at half off  ;) so 60 bucks for TWO rugs instead of 1 is awesome. I've been good with that this year!!

I want a child so bad.. I'm just not sure its going to happen... At least not at this point in my life. I really want to have another Lap done and then go from there but I just don't know. I hope after everything gets finished which in all reality its just little things now.. one big thing left is the cabinets. ( I would love new ones) we will finally have a plan.. that will get going soon. Its just depressing to think about right now. One thing that pisses me off is all these girls here just have babies.. It so frustrating. One at work just got married and like was preggo before it even happened and one girl is throwing her an 'emergency baby shower ' Because he has like nothing and is due in 5 weeks.. WEEKS. She said oh I don't know if I want the baby.. Um girl you go married if you didn't want it you know how to prevent it. She doesn't even have a crib or anything for it to sleep in.. all she does is bitch about how hot it is and eats nothing but crap. UGH.. Makes me SO mad!

I think i'm done for now.. gotta finish laundry, mother in law and her friend are coming over to help up rip up the rest of the old carpet.. which by the way.. Never think you vacuum gets all the dust/dirt.. OMG there was an insane amount of dust/ dirt under my carpet I could have died....


~Nicki

Back to normal.

For any of you that watch the news, have noticed all of the things happening natural disaster wise... On June 11th around 1230-1 pm MDT a fire broke out around the south entrance of the Royal Gorge.. It spread fast.. Burning a little over 3,200 acres in 2 days. It was crazy.. a little while later around 130-2 pm MDT a fire broke out in Black Forest, burning 14,280 acres and consuming 503 homes over 10,000 people were evacuated, more than 3,000 homes were save due to the fire fighters and first responders. It was insane. Both us and my parents were affected by this fire.. My parents ended up getting evacuated and stayed here from Wednesday after noon till Saturday afternoon. Talk about stress.. worrying if the winds were going to shift and take away everything they have worked for.. Having 5 cats and 3 dogs (large) in our little house.. and 4 people was way over whelming.. not to mention only  1 bathroom.. which while they were here, put the floor in and the toilet LOL ( they were bored and anxious).  This fire is now the largest in Colorado history as far as damage goes.

The Royal Gorge fire burned everything around the Gorge, Revenue for our state was lost :( our lively hood (what Canon City is known for) Is gone.. Rafters might not be able to raft past the gorge due to the trolly lines being in the river.. We're just praying with time that everything comes back bigger and better so our town can recover and do our part for people to enjoy this beautiful state. Its just so sad that we have to deal with this.. We need so much rain to recover.. the melt off that feeds the Arkansas River is happening fast and the river will return to low point somewhere around mid July.. which is way early :(. Do a rain dance please?


So while we try and get back to normal.. which may take awhile.. its shocking to think how close my parents came to loosing everything.. the fire was contained around 3 miles from their home..  We are now taking precautions to be prepared if something were to ever happen. We live in a Canon anything can happen.

Carpet gets installed on the first ... we have to rip everything up!  Ack.. this could be super crazy and stressful moving everything.. But thats where we have been.. I have another month of Nutrisystem I will start tomorrow.. even tho I got it last week. Its just been super crazy..

Just figured i'd let you all know where i've been! Prayers for rain, everyone who has lost their homes and been affected are greatly appreciated.. Fire season is just getting started.. we won't get 4th of July this year again, but its safer that way. And seriously If I see you throw a cigarette butt out the window.. I will turn you in and I hope that 1,000 dollar fine teaches you a lesson.. not to mention i'll kick your ass.

Used to it...

But.. its still always hurts. IUI was a bust.. of course. I don't even know why I thought it would work. I'm pretty sure my eggs are total crap.. but there is no way of knowing.. because they can't take an egg and hold it to a light or something weird like that.. I wish there was.

So anyways.. me and Danny have been super busy getting things done around the house.. we ordered our carpet.. it was more expensive than we expected, but the carpet we're getting has a 25 yr warranty and some other good stuff including stain padding and all that good stuff... plus we got our new deck out front.. like holy crap.. we actually did something we said we were gonna do. And we have to do it.. because if we don't the wood won't be any good.  My parents came down yesterday to help make sure everything was level etc... THANK GOD they did.. or we would have royally fucked it up to put it lightly. We are halfway done.. just the rest of the top boards to put on and then to figure out railing.

I don't even know how to thank my parents for all they have done for us..

~ Bought and help put up our 6ft privacy fence.
~Bought and put in my new kitchen floor.
~Bought and put in a new side door.
~Helped put in our master bath floor and new pluming and bought supplies we didn't have enough of.
~Paid for my car to get fixed ( I paid back half)
~Put in subfloor and backer board in the spare bathroom
~Help fix the swamp on and occasion
~Help fix the seal around our NEW skylights.
~Help put up our new porch and bought stuff we didn't have enough of ( we will pay them back for this)

And the next thing i'm sure is helping with my cabinets and bracing my long set to sit straight and painting them...

I love them so much and cannot thank them enough... I wish I  knew of something to repay them but cannot think of anything...The only thing I can remember ASKING for help with.. was my car.. the rest they have just volunteered for and given their time... its so nice to get to learn all these skills.. my dad is awesome at everything.. I'm trying to train Danny to be awesome too ;) he just doesn't see this LOL.

So..on the fertility front.. I just don't even want to talk about it.. I think I want another lap done.. that way if we ever do embryo donation.. it won't hinder anything and hopefully give me a better chance.. so timing would have to be just right 6-9 months after is supposedly the best time after a lap for success.  Haven't talked to the Dr about this yet.. but I will. Right now I want to just mourn that I won't be having bio kids right now. Unless we have a miracle.. We will of course be doing this the 'old fashioned' way until we figure out whats going on.  I'm just so lost, confused, hurt and mad.

PS: I have another month of Nutrisystem on the way anyday I'm pretty excited.
PPS:  Our house payment went down.. so now we are saving 110 bucks a month!
~Nicki

Already?

June.. Already?? Seriously this year is FLYING by!  We have just about 3 months left till Disney.. We actually made it to our goal of $1000 dollars for spending money! I'd say that's a miracle, plus we're over that by 10 dollars woo!! So anything else is bonus!! Looks like i'll be getting my dishes and silverware!!

In other news... this 2ww went by fairly fast.. of course the last few days before testing are going slow.  Trigger was out 9 days after trigger. I'm not having symptoms like last time.. although its 6:30 and I could take a nap. I've been the moody bitch from hell.. totally unintentional I think Danny wants to murder me. I don't know if its PMS or the Crinone, only doing it once a day.  Oi..

How is it that during the hottest part of the day its about 75 in the house.. but as the sun starts setting it gets up to 81!?! Ugh.. need new swamp cooler belt AGAIN. Thank goodness for AC and the portable swamp.

My brother made is home from his 2nd deployment yesterday :) we will hopefully get to see him soon! As I get older I miss my brother.. I hate not being so close.. Just have to enjoy our time together as we get older and don't get to see each other often because of him being in the military now.

In other news... we have someone coming Tuesday to come measure for CARPET!!! Omg I'm so excited!! Like .. I didn't know you could be so excited for such a thing. We will get all the stuff for the porch and spare bathroom too. Now.. just to get it all done!!


I think thats about it.. not much besides work going on here.. me and danny are on different schedules for now.. I don't have my Jetta anymore *sob*  Such is life one day i'll get it back.

Now off to do something.. maybe laundry and vacuum.

~Nicki

Sometimes its nice...

To have a walk in a park.. That's what I'm comparing this cycle too.. Was definitely low key, because  unless you were Danny, the Doctors Office, and my Mother in law ( danny let it slip, but thats ok she doesn't pester!) you didn't know.. yeah I didn't tell ANYONE.. I wanted to, but it was for the better as much as I love my family and friends.. they pester and keep asking questions, which is just added stress. The cycle went so smooth and stress free.. for the most part.. Been a bumpy month money wise of course but when is it not? Next thing I knew I was triggering and then going in this morning at 930 am for the IUI.

 Thats where we hit the glitch.. lol, Danny went and gave his sample at 730am, then we went for breakfast and grabbed a couple of things and went back. So we wait... and wait.. oh its gonna be about 30 more min.. insert panic. So we just sit there.. 10 rolls around.. Jodi comes out and tells me everything will be fine, there is a 4 hr window.. so I was like ok and felt a little better!  We didn't go back till almost 1030 and then about 10 min later we had the IUI. It went smooth, we talked with Jodi for a few min and then laid there for another 15. I gave my Follistim back I have 2 300 vials from our IVF, frankly I don't think it worked well for me unless I have Menopur to go with it.. and I don't like it cause it burns!! So I got Crinone in return ;) since all mine expired in March UGH!  So thankful I love that office :)

Anyways.. Now onto the 2ww.. feeling a little crampy this time around.. we had 18.8 million swimmers by the way :).  Always on the way home I feel nauseous its weird. not sure how the wait is gonna go.. hopefully fast. We're both praying hard that this works, like for real.. I wanna be buying baby furniture and doing a nursery after we come back from Disney.. like for real I don't care if I'm preggo at Disney. You can still have fun!  We seriously.. just want one baby now.. the road we have traveled has not been easy and all we could ever ask for now is just one baby to give our unconditional love, if another one came after that.. it would be just as much a blessing.

It was nice to have a day off kinda straightened up the house and catching up on shows and whatnot. Not much else has been going on around here besides getting the garden planted, and working on the patio in back and planting some flowers up front. Just chugging along, its getting hotter and the days are getting longer.. we have our first wildfire of the season.. stupid wind and dry weather! Hoping they get it contained soon, its not near here but it still affects us and our air quality yuck.

Think thats about it.. Monday our only day off together is going to be super busy.. Yikes. Hopefully productive busy.

~Nicki

So uhh...

Remember when I said we wanted to do a couple more IUIs before actually moving onto Adoption process of some sort. The months just kinda ticked by and I really didn't think it would actually happen. Well me and Danny were talking wed night...brain running 90 miles per hr... we decided to just do it.. Aunt Flo was due in a few days, so the next morning I called and said I'd call when I start etc.  Well.. Guess who had an exactly 32 day period!? ME.. Like holy crap!  Um... never happens!

Sooo CD 3 u/s will be on Sunday, got my meds.. here I was expecting to spend 145 dollars for some little pills... (we're doing Letrozole again) I get the voice mail from the pharmacy  listen to it and it tells me the total.. I was like oi here we go.. it was only 12.42.. I'm like that is not my prescription.. Just then Lisa who works in the Pharmacy says you have to kiss Dawn and give her a hug, she found a discount for it. I was soooo shocked! It totally made my day! Been having a shitty PMSy week. So Pretty excited about that :)

Thats it fow now.. gotta work at 7 am tomorrow.. Boo.

Getting Crafty around here!

I have SO many ideas floating around in my head... not just crafty things but organization things..I think i'll do a bullet post because.. its just one of those things LOL

~I found fabric.. like pretty canvas fabric to make some Pillows and an ottoman for Danny's feet so they don't rest on my coffee table all the time!!

~I'm going to have Kae make some curtains to cover up the skylights so all my new bathroom stuff doesn't get bleached and then for the kitchen to keep the heat out :)! I still want some light for the spare bathroom, but not that harsh! Because of my Orchid in there! Plus.. I'm not this talented while sewing hahah.

~I have been told to make either a pillow case or t-shirt dress for Courtney's little girl due in Sept :) need to make Chloe some too!

~I want metal coated baskets for my chest freezer... I'm tired of digging thru everything. I rather pull out baskets!

~I want baskets for our cabinets to organize junk...

~I need a storage thing for my canning jars.. they are taking up SO much room in my tupperware cabinet.

~I want to take the humongous cabinets above my washer and dryer  out and then put 1 cabinet and then a self.. but I think this will have to wait till we get  a garage.

Can you tell i've been searching pinterest LOL people have some good ideas out there.. just wish I could think of them!!

In othere news.. I feel like we just on repeat.. just not going anywhere but not going backwards.. UGH. Frustrating I tell you. I just wish stuff like this wasn't so expensive and have to make everything look decent just to bring home a baby. I'm pretty sure we are not the only couple in a holding pattern. Right? Ugh.. we probably are.. I seriously wish money grew on trees! Even if it was 500 dollars every 2 months.. LOL

Well off to get ready for work. Boo.

Why is it...

That EVERY TIME I find a dryer sheet that I like.. they discontinue them!!?!?! Like seriously. all. the. time. The bounce was the one I used the longest I think.. with the little green dots.. This one.. I've only bought 2 boxes of 70 cts... of the Snuggle Blue Iris and Bamboo Silk. I only do laundry once a week with an average of 3 loads, Maybe 4 if I was dog towels and linens.. so seriously they last me FOREVER. Ugh.. Walmart where I usually get them.. didn't have them.. nor did City Market.. it says Safeway and Walmart carry them according to their website.. So I will check Safeway next!  If not.. Amazon has them 7.00 a BOX.. Oi Vey.

Anyways.. Not much going on here.. just plugging away the best we can. Work and more work. Then attempt to do stuff on our one day together. Its a little rough only seeing each other for one whole day.. but we make due!

I can't really think of much to say.. haven't really done much.. We are feeling really confidant in our decision to do Embryo Adoption.. it feels pretty awesome.. just wish we could get the ball rolling like.. RIGHT NOW.. But I must be patient ;)!

~Nicki

*insert wrench in plan*

Yeah so.. A wrench so to speak got thrown into 'we totally are going for adoption' plan! While I was reading thru my  Nov/ Dec IVF group on my fourm I visit ( yes we still keep in touch!) One of the ladies mentioned.. Embryo Adoption.. I knew about it.. but I never considered it.. The light bulb clicked.. Its less financially, and I get to experience everything about pregnancy! I should tell Danny about this...

Instantly I knew I hit a brick wall.. Danny was not for it AT ALL.. I told him.. its still adoption.. we just get to experience what we have always wanted. He said he couldn't watch me carry someone else's child, fear of resentment etc. But when you think about it, the same process only I carry the baby. We won't have to go wherever to get the child.. wait a week in a hotel to maybe take home a baby. We will set up a nursery, buy everything, have everything ready, listen to  heartbeat, hit milestones, go to the hospital, deliver a baby, and bring the baby home.. at the end of 9 months. Then it clicked with Danny, he wants it.. I want it.. I told him I wouldn't do it just so he can make me happy , he had to want it too.

It is almost 20 grand cheaper than Domestic adoption, and you get more than one try. Because you can adopt all the couple left over embryos from their IVF.  They would not be parenting the child , they are only genetically related to our child. Me and Danny are O.K With sending updates and pictures of our child to the Bio parents but that is probably as far as it would go.. Not 100% sure we could have another 'family' per say.. we would probably really have to jive with a couple for that to happen. But I think we will tell our children as they got older, the wonderful gift and selfless act their bio parents have done for us and will be forever thankful and grateful.

That is where we are headed.. we still need a home study done and we still need to fix the house.. but not having so much expense is awesome and we can a loan we need to get done what we need done.. the 3 major things, Garage, Porch and Carpet!  I know for sure we can make that happen with Embryo Adoption.

As far as the house goes right now.. Painting and more painting!  We have done 3 doors and 3 door frames, and started painting the spare bathroom!  the door frames are quick but a pain. It takes 2 coats of primer and 2 coats of paint to cover up that ugly brown! Primer.. woo need nice weather to have windows open for that stuff!! But it shouldn't take long to get it all done!


I cleaned up my porch today and got rid of all the junk off of it!  I have a ton of pots. I wish the porch was done so I could do my flower bed.

Thats about it in our neck of the woods.. except the stupid crazy Colorado weather... It seriously needs to be Spring! Over the cold.. and so are my allergies.

~Nicki

Busy Busy.

That is what we are going to be this summer. In ordered to even let a social worker in my home for a home study.. I need to have my home presentable LOL. It is far from that in my mind.

So.. we have a huge list of a bunch of little things to get done before we move ahead! But we will get there eventually!!

-Finish the master bathroom, it needs ceiling paint. baseboards, and to spackle the wall the old cabinet came out of and trim around the new one.

- Finish the spare bathroom, it needs paint, new trim around tub, floor, new towel rods etc, and secure the new vanity.. oh and put the toilet back on LOL and get new color scheme in towels, shower curtain etc.

- Paint the door trims, I think this will be our first project as we have everything.. but the weather needs to be nice to have the windows open!!

- Paint the Kitchen cabinets, need paint and hinges as we already have the door and drawer pulls. This will be sooo time consuming but I hope and pray it will look awesome in the end!

- Redo the front porch.. some of the board are rotting.. so this will be a slow one. we will get a few boards at a time and go from there.

- Make a back patio.. my mom has a stone template that we will pour self leveling concrete in them to make it flat so my patio furniture will sit flat :) a few bags at a time.. it will get done!

-Make grass grow.. LOL

- Make a raised flower bed in front of the new porch.

- Fix/ or get new trim around the windows and around the base of the house. Its starting to show its age.

- Get new carpet. Hoping we get just a bit of extra on our loan *praying hard we get what we need* to get this done.

-We are also looking it to getting a 'garage' to store dannys tools and an area of storage for me because if we're going to stay here.. we're going to need it!

I think thats about it.. of course still trying to save for Disney.. its been a rough few months money wise.. Hoping thats over! On word! We will get there, slow but sure!!

~Nicki

Hmm..

Today is Danny's 29th birthday! LOL we're getting old around here! I found several gray hairs on my head.. EEK! They will promptly get plucked.. I refuse to dye my hair lol cause I like my hair color!


So I think me and Danny have finally decided to do adoption.. We are either going to do a home equity loan or a home equity line of credit. It just feels right.. I am happy with this home.. just wish it was a little bigger but for a family of 3 it will be just fine for now! We can add on or something LOL! Just need to fix up a few things before we take that leap.. IE finish my cabinets , bathroom and redo the porch. Those are the major things and then of course.. always need a fresh coat of paint! I REALLY would like new carpet.. but we will see LOL. Someone throw  a HUGE deal on it please!!!

Anyways.. Danny asked me about IVF.. I said I want to do it again.. but right now I just want a baby in my arms.. and adoption is a guarantee. Somewhere down the road, if it doesn't happen naturally we will do IVF again. Adoption just feels right.. and I know we will not have any problem or any one in my family for that matter, Spoiling that baby to death and loving it with all our hearts!! I just want to share the love and everything else my heart is aching to share with another little human being that needs to be nurtured, loved and taught!


That is where we are right now and feel pretty good about it right now. It just feels right.   Almost like I'm being called to start my family this way first. So now we just have to get our duckies in a row and get everything straightened out around the house so it looks presentable LOL then send in the application and get approved for what ever amount they will give us :) of course we have to find the right bank with the right rate LOL. Its not going to happen super fast I will say that! We have our trip coming up in September so around there is when we will get everything going *hopefully* because we don't want to get a call before our trip saying come get your baby! We were told by the guy we talked to that we would probably get picked fast because of our age, I can only hope! But I do know it takes a while to get everything together and approved so I will gladly wait any amount of time!

~Nicki

Days like these...

I hate.. I know its Easter and I shouldn't be sad that I don't have kids or any one to celebrate with. But I can't help but be.. I wish I had a little one to explain why we celebrate Good Friday and Easter, to watch the joy on their face while they hunt eggs and see what the Easter Bunny brought them.. and dress up in our Sunday best.

I fear I will never know those days.. I've almost come to terms.. I'm not to have kids in this time of my life. Which really hurts.. All I want is one child to love. I'm not a horrible person.. I work for everything I own, and I may not have the richest bank account ever... but I have what I need and can provide. Danny the same. I just don't understand... I wish something could make me understand.

It's Rocky's 1st birthday today.. Can't imagine life with out him. Any of my furbabies for that matter.

The weather is always nice on Days I work and crappy on days I don't work.. except today.. but I can't find to bring myself outside...Need to get the garden up and going but of course the tiller we got from Jeff.. isn't working. Thinking of taking Wed off.. even tho its supposed to Snow tomorrow. Hope it just rains. I don't like working outside by myself.. Hardly seen Danny lately due to different schedules and such, he has Wed, Thursday this week.

Also.. apparently while ovulating. supposedly anyways... I hold almost 4 lbs of water weight.. UGH.I was so frustrated to say the least! But Its all gone now plus almost 2 more lbs. So down almost 8! Happy with that.. sucks that I only can do one month of it!

Well gotta go eat something, April wants me to come over in a little bit :)

~Nicki

Nutrisystem and other things

No I am not being paid by Nutrisystem to say anything about their product!

I started last Tuesday with what my mom gave me.. and then decided hey this isn't bad and doesn't taste horrible! So I think I decided on Wed I would like to order it for my self since they were running a free shipping and 40% off :). We got a pretty good MyShare bonus this time so I paid for it with that!  I can't wait for it to come it.. Should be here tomorrow!! I've lost 4.2 lbs in almost a week :)!! Excited to see how much I loose in a month!! I did cheat some yesterday but not overboard.. got to every once in a while!

Also.. if you knew me in real life.. you know I haven't gone more than a day without soda.. Now I don't go overboard.. like drinking big gulps of the stuff.. I drink at least one soda a day.. Maybe 2! But I have gone 5 days with out drinking it.. Now I rely on my 1 coffee a day LOL which I didn't even have today!

So in other words I'm pretty excited!

I'm itching to get outside more and get the garden going.. of course the weather has to be a butthead and not cooperate.  We did tame the grape vine the other day before we had to go to work.

Finally got the 3rd season of the Tudors :) exciting. Watching the first episode before I start vacuuming the house.. Lets not even go there LOL.

I'm sure there is more to say but I'm distracted and need to get this house cleaned.

~Nicki

Rough times...

Just wanted to let you all know who ever reads this :) I'm still here.. Most of Feb and March have been rough. This whole baby thing has gotten me really depressed and angry.. as well as my weight.. I'm stuck and cannot get out of the mud.

My mom gave me  a week worth of Nutrisystem Sucess.. So we will see how that goes and I might order a month worth myself.. So far the food actually isn't bad! The Chocolate Chocolate chip muffin I had for breakfast was pretty darn tasty. I had my first egg since November (when I was stimming) and cross your fingers so far so good.

Its been pretty hectic around here.. redoing another bath, trying to keep my house..from um falling to shambles.. right now it looks like dog hair, paper and clothes explosion. Don't judge. Depression makes you not wanna do squat.

Got outta the house yesterday and drove to Nebraska LOL went to Cabelas and spent money.. that we actually had it was pretty awesome LOL. We went with Mike and April :) Pretty good day.

We went from no money 8 days ago for Disney to almost 200!  Pretty sweet :) also got our tickets and meal plan yay!

I cannot wait for the warmer weather so I can start sprucing up my yard and flowerbeds. Its supposed to be 77 on Friday..

I have way more to say but am out of time! Hope to update SOON when I find some motivation and time!

~Nicki

Sometimes.. It just makes it all better.

Jason Aldean that is. I have CMT Crossroads with him and Bryan Adams recorded and when he sings 'Heaven'  acoustically it makes me cry and makes everything melt away. For a little while anyways.

It was a rough weekend... Honestly I don't even remember what we did on Sunday.. Or wait..we tore up our OTHER bathroom floor!! I seriously wanted to cry and yesterday I had just had enough. That stupid clog caused us an unnecessary problem.. if  we would have just rented a freaking snake in the first place we wouldn't have had this problem.. or maybe we would have?? The wax ring was like.. done like there wasn't even one there.. Every time I did dishes, ran the dishwasher or laundry it backed up into the spare tub and apparently out of the bottom of the toilet.. Yeah. I noticed the floor starting to bow and tiles cracking.. YAY.

Not cool.. It smelled SOOO musty and horrible. I finally had it.. I needed to do laundry and dishes piling up everywhere, had to be to work @ 4 am today, I told Danny to call plumbers there it was at 4pm.. Mike.. thank god he used to be a plumber. Told us.. well Danny how to cut the wood around the toilet flange so we wouldn't have to get a new one and said.. just rent a snake.. well DUH. The shit you always forget you can do.. With in the next hour the clog was gone. All was right in the world.. well sort of..

Now.. I love my husband.. but dear lord this man cannot cut a straight line to save his soul. The patch job on the sub floor.. needs to be RECUT and REDONE.. Or we will have more problems.. because nothing its supported.. on the main part of the floor.. Oh lord. I was a bad wife.. and said how horrible it looked. Now he feels horrible.. this is why he was made a mechanic. I however.. grew up with a father who did EVERYTHING.. So Danny thinks i have this perfectionist mind that everything has to look and be like everything my dad does or did. No. Not true. I was just the girl who always watched what he did and helped. My brother on the other hand.. lived in front of a screen playing games. I'm better with a saw than he is.. Hammers no so much ( I have Horrible aim).. Drills yay!


So.. yeah.. thats it in the world of the home.. Being a homeowner sucks.

On the umm..baby front?? My BBT was all out of whack.. I just quit. My temp dropped and rose 3 times! Then dropped as if my period was going to come and it never did. Been crampy on and off she's due sometime next week. So who knows anymore.. I'm about to throw it all out the window.. I'm totally at a standstill with my weight no idea whats going on.. I'm sure the I NEED SWEETS NOW week last week I had didn't help. I'm just SO frustrated anymore.. nothing ever goes right it seems.. something always comes up.. its like really?? Can we just catch a freaking break !?! I just have to laugh anymore..

Sleeping has sucked lately.. like seriously I will lay in bed for at least 2 hrs before I fall a sleep and I KNOW i'm tired.. last night was a little easier cause the pluming was resolved. One night I got 4 hrs because I just.. couldn't sleep! I tried everything before taking 2 tylenol 3s... which it still took forever to fall asleep.. OMG.  BLAH. I have to go put dishes away, get my lunch ready and take stuff out for dinner tomorrow.. Work again at 4 tomorrow.. The whole week actually.. because  I get to help set mods :) yay.

~Nicki

Headaches...

Pretty sure I've written about this before.. but hey its my blog :)

I keep having headaches and i'm about sick of them. I think its a sinus problem.. because its in my temples and behind my eyes.. and dizzy when I stand up to fast or turn around to fast. Ugh.. So I think I'm gonna have to go to the Dr.. Yesterday it turned into a migraine, got home couldn't sleep.. Finally took some Excedrin migraine which took the edge off so I could sleep a bit. Then I was so tired that I didn't want to get up.

 I worked out and now feel horrible. Almost like I'm running a fever ugh.. there is some crap going around work.. I don't want it :( I just ready to go back to bed.. but gotta be to work at 1 *pout*

Was gonna write some other things.. but its 11:40 and I have to go take a shower boo.

Haha

So I don't know if I wrote about this on here.. but my mom gave us an awesome coffee pot a long time ago.. it has a grinder in it.. Made by Mr. Coffee! They don't make them anymore.. we thought it was dead.. cause the brew button.. well any button worked.. but the time always did.. So we figured it just pooped out.. well before I threw it out oh 5 months ago? I plugged it in.. and low and behold it worked! So we didn't get a new one.. Well guess what its doing it again..So.. I don't know if its a simple thing like last time.. as put the lid down or its just done.. LOL Good thing we have a tiny one, but it leaks coffee grounds all over the place cause we don't have the right filters hahah .. It did this the last time I wanted my morning coffee.. which I don't have everyday!  So.. I'll will try cleaning it and making sure the lid is CLOSED. I swear.

Plumbing problems.. still there.. the water that comes up smells HORRIBLE I Spent a few time scooping it out.. hoping it was just standing water..nope what ever it's backing up on to is making it smell.. When you get to plunging either the tub or toilet it leaks out the bottom of the toilet.. UGH. I do NOT need to replace another floor! Its weird cause we replaced the wax ring about a year after we moved in.. I can't see why it would have gone bad so fast! But we have a plan.. (Can you tell we REALLY don't wanna call a plumber??) we are gonna replace the ring on the toilet.. again.. and while its off danny is gonna run the snake.. and or we will pour this gel cleaner down the hole lol. I still think danny is gonna have to try to get under the house haha.

I worked out yesterday.. and Jillian kicked my ass.. I did kind of an improvised workout today.. since I woke up late. Mostly to stretch out. Plus its getting to be busy season at work where I move and lift a ton! Still gotta step it up tho! Had a Banana for breakfast, 1/2 cup mini wheat crunch (which is super tasty) and my cup of coffee! Only 5 pts for breakfast :). I've been bad about taking my medicine! The weekend always throws me off.. My metformin is in my work bag because I take it after dinner. Whoops.

Gotta work at one all this week I think. I can't remember lol. But excited to work. because we will be setting the new mods soon!! So exciting! Means spring and summer are coming around the corner!


Ugh.. SO I added a Disney Ticker.. and then me and Danny after our 4 hour grocery shopping trip.. ! Thought.. what happens if we get pregnant.. I can't go.. I said.. if we got preggo this month or next.. it would be cutting it close.. then I was thinking.. should I do more IUIs? I really don't want to have to go thru the intermittent leave paperwork again.. it ends in June. I hate all the hypothetical questions you have to ask.. SO frustrating! I think i'm gonna stick to my plan.. if by some chance we get preggo this month or next We will have to try to change the dates.. cause we've already got our flight tickets. Part of me doesn't care if I'm preggo at Disney.. I'll be buying baby stuff GALORE. Then another part it sad. Cause I can't ride the rides.. But honestly I'll be SO ecstatic that we finally have our baby on the way. But me being Miss pessimist.. says it won't even happen. Big Sigh... I'm still thinking IUIs for April, May and June depending on where my cycles fall.

Weekends.

Sometimes I look forward to them and sometimes I don't... Lately I have been because work is just something I do during the week, even after having 5 days off I was soo looking forward to go back! Then.. you get there and remember why I was excited to have days off LOL. I just do my 8 and go home.. I don't stress out like I used to saying oh I forgot to do this.. or I didn't get this done.. I'm only one person and can only do what I can do! Unlike some of my other co-workers who worry about that place 24/7, no thanks!
  Times I like being at work .. When we start getting new stuff in for the new season! I work in the area everyone wants to be ;) and I don't plan on moving! Garden Center is AWESOME!  I do love where I work.. its the whole micro management thing I hate!  We are getting everything in for Spring.. and of course its BEAUTIFUL outside today!! Just makes me so excited :)!

  So.. On a not so fun note. Its made me kinda bummed out.. but there is nothing I can do about it.. There are 7 girls at work SEVEN pregnant.. all due around the time I would have been.. Seriously.. I must have some sort of vendetta around me. Ugh.. And then to top it off.. Everyone is still telling me to relax.. like seriously?? I didn't know not trying wasn't relaxing? My OPKs I found.. they are bad.. So I was like eh whatever.. not important.. I'm taking my BBT.. but so not at the same time everyday.. I think i've ovulated.. but my CM is so not corresponding.. So eh if it happens it happens.. I'm thinking end of April, May  we will call and start on the run for IUI's again. So until then.. we are just living life.. plain and simple not trying. Also.. Kae says she is going to try and help by researching some stuff about infertility.. Seriously? Pretty sure in 4 1/2 years of this... i've read just about everything. End Rant.


So.. still having plumbing problems..The clog has just migrated.. so now when I do the dishes.. this horrible nasty smelling water backs up into the spare tub. Ew. Gotta get root killer.. its some pretty powerful stuff LOL and hope it moves el cloggo.

Got our fed money back.. and ordered our flight tickets! So exciting! Gotta tag the ford now.. and get a new windshield for my car. And then.. who knows lol... I do know we need to go Grocery shopping!  Danny should be home in and hour.. and we gotta go up to Springs so I can return a few things. Thats about it in our neck of the woods!!

~Nicki