Motivation

...Or lack thereof.

Zero of this exists in my body at all. I cannot bring myself to do anything. I had a pretty good day yesterday. Minus Big R Rejecting my payment.. Nice miscalculation on our parts. Suckage major.

Oh well.. such is life right? Mine is not so hot right now. I lost my debit card and discount card.. got My Discount card first.. So thought Bank would come first.. not so much going on like 2 weeks now wtf?

My nose is driving me nuts right now.. One side has been clogged all day.. Really REALLY annoying.. Yes I know i'm like Miss. Scatterbrian Queen.. But I can't hlep it! No clue who even reads this hahah.. But I don't care its my outlet.

Pretty sure i'm depressed about everything in life right now. I love my husband and my marraige but there are things around it that really suck.. Such as Money.. Infertility, And Work. I so wish I could go back to school.. Pretty sure i'd make a pretty sweet Dental Assitant... But that will never happen. So until that miracle happens I will work at Walmart .. for like ever.

Money.. we're working on it.. We now only have 3 Credit Cards.. Compared to 4. Which is good. I think anyways.

Infertility... Is still there.. Thinking about stopping temping its just one more thing that makes in on my mind all the time. Sometimes I just wish I could stop thinking.. When I'm busy.. I don't think about it.. but at work I always think about it. Home, Always. With friends.. Rarely.. Can I just not work and hang out with cool people all the time!?

Ugh.. Yeah thats how i'm doing.. pretty crappy. I have good days.. and bad days... I THINK I might go dust.. It needs it So bad.. Would it be horrible if I hire a Merry maid to come dust my house? My allergies SUCK So i dust..almost like never. Danny hates it too.

~Nicki

I know I know..

I'm a slacker..

BUT I cannot contain my self... I just bought tickets.. to see Jason Aldean on July 23rd in Cheyenne, Wyoming for Cheyenne Frontier Days.. OMG OMG OMG! They will be in my hot little hands in about 10 days!!!

In other news.. I lost my Debit and work discount card... Boo. NO idea where. So i'm getting new ones soon.. I hope. *sigh* this year could be going better I think.

I REALLY want to start treatments.. Hoepfully soon. I'm going nuts. Nothing is happening Naturally what so ever.. if anything Its gotten worse cycle wise... Ugh.. SO fustrating!!!

I need to do a really long update.. but its going to have to wait because i'm really tired... all the time. So I need to find some engery somewhere to tell bloggy land how i'm feeling these days.. So until then.. I do read everyday just can't get the engery to post a decent post...

~Nicki

Pondering.

I think I have found something I might love more than Ice cream :) Gardening.. Its fun.. at least in spring and fall hahah Summer is a bit iffy! BUT I want to redo my front garden that a mole has taken its sweet time destroying.. because apparently I have grubs... If they have killed my roses that I So preciously LOVE...there will be warfare. So this year.. I want to garden more! Canning was fun but time consuming but the fact I do not have to buy pickles or salsa is a nice thought ;)!

Also.. I am wanting to cook more! Meaning I don't want to eat out as much and try cooking more meals at home.. This could be fun or disaster. I'll let you know how this goes. hahah


~Nicki