In a nutshell...

Our vacation was good.. the first 2 days sucked.. there wasn't much to do..everything is based around the rodeo.. which didn't Open till Friday... So Wed and Thurs were a whole lotta piddling around and arguing... since I was moody, upset and bleeding.. yes.. My 4th wedding anniversary included the longest period EVER. It sucked. I forgot to take my first pill when we got to the hotel that night.. I was SO mad!! I also forgot my curling iron, brush and comb.. Awesome.

The Rodeo and Jason Aldean were AWESOME.. I want to go again.. Except I want to meet him and I want better seats at the rodeo!! Here's a few pics :)

My fave part of course was right after the rodeo was we got to go wait for Jason Aldean.. We walked to where the guy told us the 'portal' was there wasn't too bad of a line. But we saw about 7.. yes 7 trailers.. That have his picture on them *giddy* Of course I HAD to have my picture taken with them.. as Jason could have touched one at one time *lmao* They are the trialers that carry his set and stuff :)

Yes.. we waited for oh.. about 4 hours.. STANDING.. My feet were DYING. I need some insoles for my boots.. i'm wearing them out haha. BUT Jason drove by in his Georgia Golf Car :D! I think Danny was the only one that noticed.. until he came back by *lol* Then.. they came by and told us they were gonna be letting us in. Mind you we're in the Rodeo arena.. They told us don't run and to stay behind them.. HA. We were like a heard of cattle running.. in a huge cloud of dust! I was DYING of thirst... (luckily later in the show a guy left I BEGGED him to get me water.. He was Awesome) Thompson Square only played like 5 songs.. but Mark Chestnutt played for what seemed like FOREVER Before Jason Came on.. It was after 10 before Jason came on. But he put on and Awesome show!! I love my husband for taking awesome pictures because of my shortness I only caught glimpses! We were only about 15ft away <3

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I think we may have been the only sober ones there :) But thats ok! I Can rember it! And Danny got him on Video singing 'Why' But not Heaven :( sadness maybe another concert!

So in other news.. by takinh my femera a day late.. my follies are behind only at 14mm and 8mm.. That was Friday.. So Monday another scan.. Then mostlikley trigger that night and IUI on Wed :) Crossing our fingers that it goes that way!!

Also.. as we were leaving for the appt on Friday.. Danny went.. You're not going to believe this.. I of course freak out.. Our fridge went out.. So there went that day. I called off and danny called off.. there was no way we were going to get back from the appt in springs, get truck, drive to pueblo pick out a fridge, load and drive back to house... then unload old fridge and get new one in the house.. Holy crap.. we had to take the front of the porch off.. THEN the doors of the new fridge.. Holy crap.. Then we found out.. its either a breaker or something in the wall... Well that new fridge isn't going ANYWHERE after the small brain anyrusim it gave me. So its plugges in with and extenstion cord till we get it figure out. Ugh... Just after we got the damn card payed off.. Grr!

I think thats about it..! For now anyways.

~Nicki

Waiting...

We should be getting ready to head to Wyoming.. Instead i'm waiting to go to my ultrasound @ 3pm.. Boo But at least I get to cycle.

I decided i'm not gonna tell everyone under the sun that i'm cycle.. it was just too much.. hearing.. Have you started yet? Have you tested yet? When is your next appt? Argh... its like thats all anyone ever asked or texted me. GAH!
~Nicki

Today Sucked.

It blew the big one.. I set myself up for dissapointment. I took my temp.. Drop from 98.6 to 98.3 I knew it was coming.. Then I was stupid and took my last digital.. bad Idea.. Not Pregnant.. I've been awake since 4 am. Crying pretty much all day on an off...

Went and got beta.. It came back at 0. As soon as I got home I started bleeding..Basically we had a Chemical pregnancy (very early miscarriage) I'm numb.. Why us?

I don't know what to think of this upcoming vacation...I'm excited and sad at the same time. Me and Danny are devestated.. but are ready to cycle againg.. Not telling anyone ( except the girls on my board and my 2 friends stacey and kayla :) ) They are my support that gets me thru this...

I just spent 186.00 on my Femera *die* CD 3 u/s set for Wed @ 3.. We had planned to be in Wyoming by then.. but the lord has other plans. I'm so thankful my RE is letting me go again. She said had my level been higher it would have been no.. But since its 0 we're good to go...

I <3 my RE's office... My actual Dr called.. and the Nurse a while later to make sure I was doing ok. <3

This is a Break down of what we will pay.. this is minus the IUI cost. Since we haven't even got the first bill x.x....

CD3 us - Copay and gas : $100
MidCycle Scan- Copay and gas $100
IUI Day- Copay and gas $ 100
Meds: Ovidrel - $80
Femera:$186.00
Thats almost $600 just what we have to pay. Ugh.. But I pray its worth it and gives us a munchkin.. Soon.\

~Nicki

GAH!

Today did not start out a good day!

I don't feel pregnant.. I have no symptoms.. I'm not even tired anymore.. no cramps Nothing. Unless you want to call me snapping a moood swing.. I think that amounts up to stress :(. I'm praying that a little bean has snugged in and is going to treat mommy nice with few symptoms :)

So.. as we left the house to get lunch we go rear ended..Awesome. They talked us into not calling insurance company right away he is going to come look at it to see if some guy he knows will fix it cheaper than insurance.. If they won't sorry chick your insurance is going up. I was pissed and angry and freaking out.. If I have a miscarriage because of this.. I'm suing. Its taken us almost 3 YEARS to get here.. I'm not gonna take it lightly.. But I haven't had so much as a twinge...

Ugh.. I just want it to be tomorrow.. I have to finish laundry and packing.. then maybe shampoo a few spots on the floor and vaccum cats room.. and dust the bedroom.

Please lord.. We're begging you down here.. let this pregnancy stick and grow~!

~Nicki

O.M.G

Seriously is this really happening to me? I told Danny Tuesday that I wasn't waiting till thursday to test. I tested Wed.. and got the FAINTEST Line.. I was freaking out.. I asked Danny if he saw what I saw! He said yes!

I then proceeded to poas when I got home from lunch.. still pos.. then 2 more on Thursday including a digital that read ' Pregnant' I was so waiting for it to say 'Not pregnant' I finally believed it enought to call the Dr for a blood test.. I had it done yesterday. My Beta was 24... not where they like to see it... progesterone was 16.6 :) But .. I'm pregnant.. and now that I am.. I don't want it to go away.. We're praying SO hard for this little bean that is SO loved already...You have No idea. Please Lord.. I'm putting my fait in you.. give me the miracle me and my husband have been waiting for so long... PLEASE DOUBLE BETAS!!!


I go back Monday!

~Nicki

Bad Blogger!

I know i'm a horrible blogger as of late!!

Well The trigger shot was a hell of a lot easier than I made it out to be hahah I didn't feel it. Only burning afterwards that didn't last long! I was terrified that I was going to ovulated before the IUI.. We BD'd the day before the trigger. Then like 2 days after the IUI. Which was on the 30th. I'm only 9dpiui... and Am Currently going CRAZY.

I want to test SO BAD... But I am resisting...I'm not having any solid symptoms.. probably just imaginary ones.. unless you wanna call having the runs every day at almost the same time a symptom? A little cramping and pinching..but i think i'm imagingin that.. I was sick on Wed this week.. ended up coming hom early after barely working 2 hrs.. I thought i was gonna blow chunks every where and was diizy! I think its odd that it only lasted for a little bit by the time I got home it was pretty much gone.. except I woke up I felt like I was hit by a train... and had a huge migraine. Ugh.
Today I took a nap and felt a bit achy mild headache.. but its gone away now. Ugh.. I'm not feeling very positive... I know its probably still early.. but I don't want to just know.. like now.


Me and Danny are doing good. I think we're pretty close now more than ever.. I'm not sure how or why but we are and I like that :) Getting ready for Cheyenne Wy. So I can see JASON ALDEAN!!! WOO!!! And I'm excited to learn they have a Botanical Garden... I've always wanted to go to one.. and Now we can I'm so excited!

Really getting tired of the 5 to 2 shift.. all I want to do it come home and nap. And then I sit on the computer.. And I miss Danny... I see him like maybe 10 min in the Am.. He's at work when I get home then I'm asleep by the time he gets home. So I only see him for 2 days on our weekends. It sucks. I've been extra frisky this week which is kinda odd for me. I'm excited about the prospects of sex tonight or tomorrow hahah.

Still not sure if we can cycle in July if this cycle doesn't work :( It has be times JUST right.. in order for it to work... So we're not driving back and fourth between Wyoming.. Glad its only 3 hrs away! But that would totally BLOW. So Praying for a quick start if I get a BFN.

Thats all on my front.. Garden is doing good.. Finally getting rain!!! TONS of grapes this year.. WOO! Peppers a few almost ready! Then everything else just took off after the rains! Just worried about when we go on Vac so we will see!

~Nicki