Day 14, 15 and 16

Sorry.. I know i'm slacking! My Schedule  at work has been crazy and it doesn't look like its getting better any time soon.. I cannot wait until inventory is over and we get our new assistant. On another note.. my allergies have been driving me bonkers. Its Not even March. Damn warm winter! Ok.. Onward.


 Day 14 - Put your iPad on shuffle. List the first 10 songs that play.
1. My Little Girl - Tim McGraw
2. People are Crazy- Billy Currington
3. Love your Love the most- Eric Church
4.  Dangerous Man- Trace Adkins
5. You had me from Hello- Kenny Chesney
6. Walking In Memphis - Lonestar
7. A little less talk a lot more action- Toby Keith
8. My Next 30 years- Tim McGraw
9. Who's Kissing you now- Jason Aldean
10. Here with out you -3 Doors Down

( I'm shocked Jason didn't show up more... but then again I'm not shocked Tim Showed up as much as he did.. haha he was my other country man crush in HS ;) I have All his album!! Can't help it i'm a country girl at heart!! But I have other stuff too! )

 Day 15 - Show your favorite outfit or fashion pieces.
 I don't have a favorite outfit.. Sad no? I used to love clothes.. Now I just.. wear them. Nor do I have 'fashion pieces I wear the same jewelry every day. I am by no means a fashionista. I wear whatever I pull out of my closet which is usually jeans and a tee shirt!

 Day 16 - How did you and your partner decide when you were ready to start trying to conceive?

We decided we were ready to start trying a little while after we were married.. We have both always wanted kids but wanted to enjoy our time together, but something was just missing from our lives. So in May of 2008 I went of BC. And since then we have only had 1 Chemical pregnancy. Numerous treatments clomid, femera with out Ovidrel and with, Gonal-F, Bravelle. We've done it. Still no baby. IVF coming soon. We hope!

~Nicki

Day 12 and 13!

Sorry been pretty tired after work.. when I should be working out.. I need to ditch the lazy bug somewhere or give it to someone else.. cause i'm done with it!

 Day 12 - List 5 pet peeves.
Lets see.. For those of you who KNOW me.. this is my biggest one. Ever.
I HATE Repetitive  motive... if you are tapping your pencil..  I will grab it and tell you to stop.. anything moving, poking prodding me or around me will be thwarted! I blame my brother.

2. Dirty windshields.. they drive me insane I will wash a window 50 million times to get a bug smear off. So I waste the heck outta washer fluid :)

3. My forgetful brain..  I can literally walk out of a room and forget what I was going to do.. and stand there forever trying to think of it.. then I go back to previous room.. and remember what I was going to to do or get.

4. My cats.. yes I love them.. but sometimes they drive me up a wall!! With all the hand, foot butting for attention and Volts not stop meowing!

5. A sink full of dishes.


 Day 13 - List 5 guilty pleasures.

Hmm..

1. Ben and Jerry's Cheesecake brownie ice cream.. OMG YUM.

2. Fishing out on a  lake.. so quiet and peaceful :)

3. Baking. I love Baking

4. Gardening and playing in the flowers!

5. Jason Aldean.. Yes.. he is :)

In fact.. I'm going to go bake some cookies... the BEST Chocolate Chip Cookies EVER. And my mom is confusing me.. And I'm GOING to go back to school if it kills me... or a car due to commuting.

~Nicki

Day 10 and 11

Day 10 - What is your favorite book? My favorite book would have to be one I just read.. The Help.. I couldn't put it down, I read it in 3 days! Which for me is FAST. I used to read a bunch.. then just kinda stopped which sometimes I wish I hadn't.! Its a wonderful book I suggest you go read it as I am Horrible at summing up books!!! Now granted my Favorite series would have to be Harry Potter :) But who doesn't love Harry!?


Day 11 - If you could have 3 wishes, what would they be? Hmmm tough one.
1. To become pregnant overnight.. :) Hey it said wishes!!
2. Make ALL the Bills go away
3. Be living in a new house!

Not much new to report just chugging along!

~Nicki

Day 9

Day 9 5 things you want to do before you die

1. First and Foremost.. Be a Mommy
2. Go to Ireland
3. Complete a scrap book.. (i'm such a slacker)
4. Drive/ Own a Corvette
5.Front row of Jason Aldean Concert WITH a Meet and Greet.

Yep. Granted I'd be A. Ok with just number one on my list!!

I am Jealous of Miss Chloe's mommy! She just had her not even 3 weeks ago and is already almost back in her pre preg jeans.. It will take me YEARS if that!! She's lucky her daughter is cute ;).  Blah.. I do not want to go to work tomorrow. I want Vacation. Oh On a good note! I might get to see my brother more often because he is moving to Idaho!!! That was where we were originally supposed to go instead of Texas that didn't happen haha. So he will be a little over 12 hrs away :)! I need to get preggo so I can see if I can use my vacation time or not.. I hate that.

Day 7 and 8 because...

I went yesterday and got my baby fix with little Miss Chole!

Day 7 Where do you like to shop?

It USED to be Old Navy.. then they started making ugly colored and weird clothes. I would have to say...Lane Bryant.. Right now.. They have cute clothes.. granted they are expensive but For a bigger girl like me its worth it :) Plus they have cute bras!!

Day 8.. My Dream Vacation It would start with like a Week and half at Disney World.. I love Disney World. In fact its where we went on our Honey Moon :)  Then. We would fly to Australia, Ireland,  And Scotland.. I've been to England but i'd go again in a heart beat.. Hmm maybe Switzerland for some awesome Chocolate!  Then we'd end up in some tropical place!!  I'd like to think we'd be gone for well over 3 months.. Because I'd want to soak it all in.. and have an Unlimited budget to buy anything we wanted and send everything back ;)!!

I got in my Chloe love last night.. She Is SUCH a good baby!  Going back for some more tonight ;)! She's adorable.. I cannot wait to have mine.

~Nicki

Day 6 and a rambling

Day 6  A picture of something that makes me happy... I just looked thru all of my pictures..  and there were a few that stuck out.. but they aren't THINGS.  So you get this.

My furbabies.. They make me happy :) When I'm upset they know and cuddle with me... and they don't ask questions! ( Plus 2 of them you can hold just like babies!

Anyways.. I do not see how people have the energy when they get home.. to do things.. like work out.. I'm exhausted. I need to get a pedometer and see just how much I walk in one day. It will probably be ridiculous. But i'm just so tired when I get home.. I just want to eat dinner and then veg. Ugh.. I dunno I need a 2nd boost!!  Blahhhh that's how I feel when I get home!! When In all reality right now I need to get on the elliptical.

~Nicki

Day 5

Day 5 is 15 facts about yourself.  This could be hard *lol*!


1. I'm an animal lover.. Right now my 3 cats and dog are my furbabies :) They are spoiled!
2. I can spend money like its going out of style.
3. I love to bake
4. Danny is the only guy I've ever been with intimately :)
5. I LOVE Snowmen!
6. I like to go fishing especially on boats!
7. I am a Disney Freak.. Boy or Girl my first nursery will be Winnie The Pooh, no matter what!
8. I'm a very pessimistic person and always have been.. except when it comes to giving people advice.. i'm a optimist. Weird huh?
9. People always come to me with problems because I always give good advice
10. I'm a very shy person until I get to know you then I am very outspoken
11. I am very blunt.. I say it like it is.. don't sugar coat it please.
12. I love taking pictures.. which is why I need a baby.. I have to many of my animals!
13.I hate dusting.
14. I love gardening but I hate being outside when its a million degrees.
15. I'm a giant procrastinator.


That's a lot about me hahah It was quicker that I thought, but i'm sure there is plenty more!

I think.

I am ovulating this month.. Last month was a no go.

But I got a Pos OPK and i've been feeling some pinching and cramping past few days. Not getting my hopes up. But it would be awesome.  And we've only had sex Sunday and Today   *lol*  Oh well time will tell! But I ain't counting!

~Nicki

Day 4 :)

 Day 4 - If you won the lottery what would you blow your money on (after charity and bills, of course) list 10 material possessions you would buy for yourself.

This could take me a while.. I know a few.

1. I would buy a 57' Chevy Bel Air 4 door, in Seafoam Green and White :) My dream car!
2. I would buy land and build the house of my dreams!
3. A Green House!!
4. I would Open my Bakery and Danny's shop :) also to Feature Kayla's art!
5. I would buy horses...
6. Matching furniture!
7. ( i'm stuck...). Um a really nice Camera ( My mom totally got a Canon Rebel.. I'm SO Jealous)
8. A Mickey Mouse Themed Kitchen
9. A New Computer
10. An iPhone!


PS: Meltdown is over .. sort of. We have to wait at least a month to call back.. but for now..I do not have to fork over 900 some odd dollars in Property tax. ( We are supposed to have it escrowed.. out of payment , they say it has been but haven't sent out payment yet.. so to ignore it and check back to double check)

PPS: Diet fail.. Doughnuts for breakfast.. why do I stress eat?? Wish I knew how to stop that!!!

~Nicki

Day 3

What's in my Makeup bag:

Clinique Mascara
Avon eye shadow
MaryKay Liquid foundation
Olay total effects eye transforming cream
3 Brushes (don't ask for specifics cause I hardly ever wear make up)
2 sponges
Clinique Powder
Eyelash curler
Pencil sharpener
Eyeliner
And last but not least Estee Lauder eyeshadow (Freebie Which most of my stuff is!)

Thats it.. Now I have to stop having a mental breakdown.. totally Don't know what to do right now.. I'm lost.

~Nicki

Day 2 :)

Now that I cleared up that mess!! Sorry *lol* Still figuring out the new layout...

So let see.. Day 2.. whats in my Handbag.. (this should be interesting)

The obvious: Checkbook, Bank cards, rewards cards, and  a non working pen.

Also there is Old grocery lists, receipts, coupons, an old bank card that needs chopped up. I have  lip gloss, lipstick, a shout wipe, benadryl , hair tie, 2 things of floss ( I blame my mom.. but she's right you can never go with out hahah!) and cold sore stuff  Thats about it..

I am def not the girl who carries he life in her purse!!  I HATE huge bags the biggest one I own I never use.. hahah simply because everything gets lost!!

Little Update: Weight loss is going ok.. I need new batteries for my scale So haven't actually SEEN results but I am cutting back on how much I snack and what i'm eating, exercising a bit more :) We took a walk today before the wind started. Yesterday was kinda a cheat day we ate Sonic for dinner, but honestly thats the first time we've ate out in a while :) except for Subway.. but they don't count because its good for you :) and I never get anything but Turkey and Ham lol!

 So thats about it on the home front right now :) Gotta go get started on Laundry and do dishes and make our dessert for the week!! And take an allergy pill..

~Nicki

30 Day Blog Post Challenge!

Found from a fellow blogger :) over at My Journey TTC... So Far (Hope that worked my first attempt at a link hahah! I will attempt to do this.. Haha No guarantees! So.. Day one, the meaning behind my Blog name.. I'm not cool and witty So Our Journey to Parenthood and Life is all I could come up with! Simply stated :) trying to make our family and dealing with Infertility and the hardships and triumphs that life throws at us as a married couple!! ( I wish you could do this in ALL one blog post.. but then I see that it would be REALLY LONG teehe ;) )
 Day 1 - What is the meaning behind your blog name?
 Day 2 - What's in your handbag?
Day 3 - What's in your makeup bag?
 Day 4 - If you won the lottery what would you blow your money on (after charity and bills, of course) list 10 material possessions you would buy for yourself.
 Day 5 - 15 facts about yourself.
 Day 6- A picture of something that makes you happy.
Day 7 - Where do you like to shop?
 Day 8 - Describe your dream vacation.
 Day 9 - List 5 things you want to do before you die.
 Day 10 - What is your favorite book?
Day 11 - If you could have 3 wishes, what would they be?
 Day 12 - List 5 pet peeves.
 Day 13 - List 5 guilty pleasures.
 Day 14 - Put your iPad on shuffle. List the first 10 songs that play.
 Day 15 - Show your favorite outfit or fashion pieces.
 Day 16 - How did you and your partner decide when you were ready to start trying to conceive?
Day 17 - Discuss the most ridiculous thing you ever heard about conception. Where did you hear it? Did it work for someone else? Did you try it?
 Day 18 - Besides Mothers Day, what is the hardest holiday for you as an infertile?
 Day 19 - Write a letter (one that you never have to send) to a fertile in your life. Did they hurt you? Support you? Tell them how you feel, all the things you can’t bring yourself to say in person.
 Day 20 - Discuss how you found your way into the ALI community, and what being part of it has meant to you – good and bad.
 Day 21 - If you had gotten pregnant that first month you started trying, how would you have been a different parent? What changes have you made to your parenting style (either current or future) in the time you spent trying to conceive?
Day 22 - What was the first baby or pregnancy-related purchase you ever made? Was it before or after you started trying to conceive? Or was it after you were already pregnant? Why did you choose that particular item to buy first? If you haven’t purchased anything yet, why not?
 Day 23 - Talk about how you chose your RE.
 Day 24 - If a very observant stranger were to walk into your house, what clues could lead them to believe that you have struggled with infertility?
 Day 25 - Have you ever bonded with someone IRL over infertility?
 Day 26 - Were you the product of infertility? Was anyone you know the product of infertility? How do you know? Or do you just suspect based on circumstances like age differences between siblings, time between marriage and conception, etc.
Day 27 - Talk about a time when you made someone in your life understand more about infertility.
 Day 28 - What do you use the “nursery” for right now? If you already had a baby, what did you use it for before pregnancy?
 Day 29 - If you had known that you would have trouble conceiving, what would you have done differently in life? If you already knew, did that knowledge affect your other life choices?
Day 30 -Tell us about a friendship you lost or a relationship that changed for the worse because of infertility.

Click!

Something finally clicked.. I'm trying to eat better.. For real. Exercising and trying not to eat after 8 at the latest :) So far so good.. My scale needs batteries... So i'm avoiding that. But I should probably get it back.. I can't wait for payday to get here.. ordering a diet pill to help a bit... Nothing drastic tho :) They actually make a diet pill with a version of Crack in it!? NO thanks! Basically what has brought this on.. I've been SO upset and stressed lately.. So many babies are on their way if they aren't already here... If I hadn't of miscarried i'd be due Late April... Which is only a few months away.. I think that's whats hitting me the most. But there is nothing I can do about it... April and Mike just had their baby girl Chloe :) We can't wait to meet her! (that's the thing I'm sad.. then I relish the moment.. wanting to buy all these baby things!!) Jeff's little one is due on our 5th wedding anniversary. Three fellow infertile friends.. one had her baby the same day as April, one just found out she'd preg again not trying, and one is due in a few months! Plus another lady at work is due any day.. and tons of other girls at work that don't even deserve it but I won't go there!! I hope that our time is coming soon.. I need to call RE and make an appt to see what our next step is. Danny applied for the Feds.. I hope that he gets picked up because it would mean a lot of bills pd off and we will do so much better in the money dept! Ugh! gotta get ready for work! ~Nicki

Not so sure..

That i'm digging this new layout blogger thing has... It's just so.. WHITE. Blech. I went back today and read some older posts.. I can't believe that I've had this thing 2 years tomorrow!! Crazy.. and still no baby!! I think about all I did today.. since my house was clean..(amazing) Was shampoo and vacuum the cats room. Other than that I've been pretty lazy today. Haven't eaten a ton which is good.. I wanted to work out.. But once again lack of motivation.. Maybe me and Danny can go for a walk in the morning? Ugh.. Much harder than you ever think.. But after looking at pictures of myself.. I cannot believe what I look like.. and how huge I am :( Waiting for Kae to come over to help me finish my first crocheted blanket for little Miss Chloe Madison. Mike and April came over last night for dinner which was the bomb. It made me long to have a round belly and be anxiously awaiting her arrival.. in less than a week. But then I sit and think how terrified i am of actually having a baby.. I'm so ready to be a mom but then I think.. what If I can't provide what they need? What if I can't change their diapers because it smells bad? Or can't handle the baby drool because it makes my stomach turn into knots? How will we handle baby care.. etc. Its all a jumble in my head. But we want it so bad. We're so ready. Ugh.. Need to get off here.. Biggest looser is starting again :) Maybe this will make me motivated! ~Nicki

Good Bye 2011.. You Sucked.

Hello 2012 :)! You just have to be way better than last year!!

I didn't really make any 'resolutions' as we never stick to them.. So we will just go day by day :) All the Christmas Decorations are put up except my Snowmen on the mantel :) Its still January.. although we are experiencing early Spring weather here.. Gotta love Colorado! When I get my mom's old curio cabinet I'll put them in there!

There is a few things that NEED to happen this year.. Debt paid off which we are slowly working on :) Weight needs to be lost.. and I NEED to get preggo hahah well.. not NEED more or less WANT. I want to try and be more organized which with the help of Pinterest just might happen!! Keep my house cleaner.. i'm such a disorganized person I hang on to EVERYTHING. It needs to end haha.


Anyways.. those are just a few things that I want to happen in the new year :) We have a fresh start.. at least it feels like that anyways.. Now if only old debts got erased at the start of the new year we'd be good ;)! I did find a bill that hadn't been opened from the university.. eek a little over 1400 on ONE BILL.. EEK! Gotta get cracking on the Dr. Bills not to mention what we still haven't paid from the other ones.. a little at a time.

My house is SLOWLY returning to normal still need to shampoo my carpets.. Really do now because Wrangler helped himself to the ham bone out of the black eyed peas.. Butthead left slobber all over the floor!

I think thats about it.. Just a quick update :) Off tomorrow to! Then Back to normal next week. Spring is coming.. I cannot believe how fast this year went.. Crazy.

~Nicki