Hmm..

Well.. Tomorro is CD 14.. and No ovulation in sight.. argh! No cramps nothing.. Maybe I will O late this cycle? No clue.. Or I could be miserable all day tomorrow hahah Go figure!

I have this severe urge for Captian Crunch.. Don't know why.. I just want it... Also Tried Pepsi Throwback.. OMG so good! Know I shouldn't drink it.. BUT it taste just like when I was a kid! Yum. I really need to stop snacking so late at night.. I know its not good for me! I HATE working swing shift.. if you will.. It sucks. get up late... go to bed late..

Roofers will be here tomorrow to FINALLY finish the skylights YAY! Only took 6 months! I will not give them the check until its inspected.. first.. Asswipes. I really want new curtains for my living room.. I have some.. but I have to hem them in order to use them.. Which.. takes a long time.. seeing as how they need to go from 83in to 54in... Takes forever.. I think I will tackle this tomorrow while I have nothing to do.. And I will use my NEW sewing machine!! My mom got me one for my Birthday! I'm excited.. I have instructions woo!! The old one I had quit working.. and no instructions.. pretty difficult.

Danny was a nice hubby today :) Took my patio set.. Outdoors finally hahah Yeah its sad I know.. and ghetto.. Patio furniture indoors who knew? Put Small table back in kitchen and put new old one up in dining room :) Its like.. 2 yrs old... mom didn't like it.. so she got like a bar table type thing.

Well pretty tired, roofers coming early...So maybe more tomorrow!
~Nicki

Not much new!

Nothing new to report.. just realized I need to see more sunlight hahah! I could be doing dishes.. but there is no energy today! None zip zero zilch.. Waiting for the Pos OPK.. is like the 2ww.. OI! I am super.. bitchy today hahah Danny's not feeling it :P Oh well! I have my days.

Made the date for Stacey's babyshower.. just so happened to be Dannys birthday.. he wasnt' happy.. then never bothered to ask what time.. Ha he felt like an ass afterwards. I said it would be at 2.. don't think I'll be THAT late getting home! Men! Oh well.. gotta go to work sorry this is short! Will try to make a longer update tonight when I get home.. Tomorrows Friday YAY!

~Nicki

I love him.. I really do... But

I just cleaned my oven and stovetop.. under.... burners there yah go.. now there is cheese.. and grease everywhere.. argh. And my poor pans.. He has anialahted my poor frying pans.. he uses metal.. even tho I tell him not to... What can you do? I still love him he is so supportive and everyone who knows how he treats me tells me they are jelous ;) He's my teddy bear!

Also.. I don't want to do anything today.. because its snowing well was.. its supposed to snow on and off all day. Danny is coming home a bit early from work and bringing me lunch :) I can live with that! Then I have to go to work.. ew... and he will have to get ready for his 'real' job hahah I don't consider fast food a real job since he only works there part time...

AND My animals are driving me NUTS today! Doc, dannys cat.. sneaks around and if you lean up while sitting.. you lean back and BAM there he is.. and he just gives you that.. ' what' look. Gotta love the furballs tho :)

Also.. Haha I like that word today.. My little electric grill my mom gave me.. is slowly dying.. its cooking slower :( Granted it sprays grease everywhere.. maybe we should get a George Forman grill :) We us that thing alot!

Ok and one other thing.. you ladies who are following me and vice versa, I'm not one to comment much but I do enjoy reading other peoples journeys :) and everyonce in a while i'll comment!

Dog is whining.. it must be snowing again.. gotta let him in and get ready for work!

~Nicki

Full....

Oi I just barely ate anything for lunch! Had few spoonfulls of potatoes and peas.. and like 5 chips( healthy I know) And i'm FULL! Only thing I had for breakfast was a bananna and my vitamins..Which I found one that acutally gives me energy to do stuff! Woo! Just have to take extra folic acid with it, but its small and doesn't taste bad like the other.. Ew. That is why I hate vitamins.. they taste HORRIBLE if they touch your tounge... Blech.

Not looking forward to the Ovulating pains I will experience in the next few days.. If i'm like the last 2 cycles I will ovulate Monday or Tues.. perfect Timing hahah, We're off those days ;) ... I am having some serious hot flashes this cycle.. Oi.. This sucks!

Ok... need to do some dishes before work.. I still feel like I ate an entire meal.. I don't know whats going on there.Ugh.

~Nicki

Blah...

Had a great day yesterday :) our friend Jeff make us laugh alot.. which is good.. need to do that more often... Not much going on here waiting for Dannys Birth cert from Indiana.. Joy. I pray to god they accept him at Meps... I HATE Waiting for change to happen.. its more stressful than BAM over in a week here you go see you later. Nope gotta wait... BLAH!

Feeling funny right now.. can't quite catch my breath.. or take enough in.. Its quite annoying and i'm sitting up straight... I still have to take my last Clomid pill before I go to bed.. I think I will take my vitamins in the morning cause I was awake last night.. and I hate taking too much meds to make me sleep! Need to get clothes out of dryer and washer.. fold and put away!

Danny tried arguing with me this afternoon.. that he wants to have better for our kids than what his parents gave him... Well I think we've already surpassed that point.. We had more than they did.. Also.. he doesn't want to wait to have 'toys' .. well to me that just sounds like you don't want to put your kids first.. my parents don't regret giving us anything we have now.. and to say that seems like... you don't want to put your kids first.. Kind of hard to explain but thats what I got out of it..he finally came around.

Off to finish laundry.. pretty tired today cleaned and lazed around hahah...

~Nicki

Ugh !

Seems like its been a long month.. but its been really short!

Just waiting on Dannys Birth Cert. then he can go to meps.. Woo! Hope he can go to basic soon after that and also he gets the job he wants... Praying for that!

I so had a Barbie ride on.. FJ Cruiser to be exact.. fall on me cause my elbow buckled.. then I lost my footing and hit my leg pretty hard on the pallet.. so now my neck hurts and a nice briuse on my leg. Awesome.

Called OB the other day to see if they do monitoring on Clomid.. medical assitant who called had no Idea and was pretty sure they didnt... Yeah So looks like I might be moving on to an RE which I only have one to choose from as 2 are about 3 hours away in Denver. Yuck. So we will see what they say when they call back next week.

Can't wait to get Stacey's shower stuff ordered! Need to get the ball rolling on that...

Also found out I have one more month of clomid after this.. So that will be 4 not 3 woo? Hahah Not sure what to think about this! I just want to have a little bundle of joy and start the next Chapter in our life..weather my mom wants me to or not! ( I think she is having problems grasping the fact I want kids now.. I'm almost 24.. I know its still young BUT i'm not everyone else and don't wanna wait till i'm 30.

Really tired and sore off to bed ! ~Nicki

Out this month...

Out this month.. I think.. Had brown blood (old blood) when I wiped this morning.. that usually is the start to Aunt Flo... But haven't had anything since and preg test was big fat negative... SO gonna do this last month of clomid and then start looking for RE's unless OB wants to monitor me.. Probably not. So gotta find one that takes our insurance! And that is close by I hope.


What a way to start my weekend.. gonna do some dishes.. my eye is itching.. this nice weather is EVIL. Making the weeds thing OH spring *bloom* No not cool.. I still have 3 months weed free! Where is the cold and snowy weather? Oh well Off to do Some dishes.. Girls day tomorrow :) Yay then springs again Tuesday for the recuiter to get that ball rolling.

~Nicki

Argh!

So I have a tension headache today.. and my eye won't quit twitching.... Really Annoying...Not to mention I'm hungry..and I just ate.. WTH?

Yesterday was super stressful...probably hench the headache today.. Well I HATE drawn out.. changes to your life.. Just get it over with and start it, is how I work!... Danny went to recruiter yesterday hoping to sign papers.. Didn't happen.. Oi.. Has to have medical paperwork saying He does not have Active TB.. When he was 9 he popped a posative on his TB test...but took all the meds and everything and has clear lungs.. so he supposedly just carries the germ? Yeah.. complicates the issue.. Has to be approved by MEPS Dr.. if he's not sure has to go to Surgeon General in Tx... Joy So I'm hoping and praying that everything goes ok NEXT monday.. he's starting paper work and everything.. And that is my planned Girls day :) I miss my Kayla!!! Being grown up sucks sometimes! Anyways.. We went had Lunch at Culvers and then went to Babies R us Looking at stuff for Gideon ;) Want to buy one of his big items so mommy don't have to as they are looking to buy a new car and every little bit helps!!

As to say.. it was complete tourture... I have Bedding picked out...have for a while and everything that goes with it.. all we really need furniture wise is a Changing table.. and basically all the necessities, stroller etc. OI.. I'm horrible I want to be a mommy so bad!

Anyways.. last night was horrible also.. Was just stressed.. cause we found out that he has to have 6 jobs picked out. And is NOT garunteed his first choice... wish he was ... But thats a choice i'll just have to live with.. I just don't want to move A BUNCH and I don't want him to be delpoyed a ton 6 months in one year is fine.. and I know he will have to do TDY's and some remotes which can be up to a year.. Ugh.. Its SO different when you start this as a couple... and not just marry into it..which I said I would never do and so did Stacey ;) BUT the benifits SO out weigh the bad.. SO its worth it. Like the guy said yesterday the worst job in the AF is better than the best job in the civilian world or something like that.. You have a steady pay check and benifits and don't have to worry about not having anything and can live a good life.. And maybe i'll get to be a stay at home mom :)

OK gotta got to work..ew its Monday...~Nicki

Stressful day...

So.. started off Ok.. Then called Delta Dental on a bill that keeps coming back.. apparently we HAD to pay it cause my old dentist took a full set of Xrays.. as well as my new dentist.. And they have to be 3 yrs apart.. and they werent... So there was 144 bucks out of the roof payment.. Whoops.. Have to put probably 400 back in By Feb 1st.. thats when Its getting finished.. FINALLY After 6 months of messing with the stupid Company.. NEVER GO WITH SCHMIDT ROOFING!!! OR if you have Farmers Insur.. DON'T use First Choice.. Horrible people keep getting our dates mixed up... Yeah So not avilable on Fridays...Stupid woman...

SO they say that these skylights are clear.. And tempered glass :) Yay. No more shitty looking skylights! And they will repaint out turtle ducts.. Which are brick red right now.. and our roof is.. Brown.. Slightly ugly looking. So pretty stressful day!

Danny went to put gas in truck.. had to clean battery terminals and stuff before going cause of it sitting, and had to jump start it....Got down to gas station put gas in.. and it wouldn't start.. Seriously? Had to throw some clothes on and go jump it again.. Drove to Checkers to see if it was the Alternator.. since its a NEW battery BUT its ok.. just needed to charge.. alot hahah Then we went and ate at Chilis.. seriously contemplated a Maragrita... But since i'm in my Two week wait.. I decided against it.. even tho i'm probably not preggo... Not having any symptoms or anything... If aunt flow comes on the 20th or so.. I will so have one. Or a nice stiff drink anyways.

Off to the springs tomorrow.. Danny will probably be signing paperwork to get ready for Meps and set up for basic.. Wow.. Hopefully his PERA and 457 retirements will be enough to cover most of our major debt..1 BIG credit card and a Loan then pay off a hunk of other credit card. Oi... Then maybe I won't stress so much! I'll go crazy instead acutally having money hahah.

Good Night early day tomorrow ~Nicki

Tired!

Ugh.. I am NEVER up this early unless I have to be.. Danny snoring and me making myself anygry over the stupid skylights.. Our roofing company is about the dumbest out there and didn't think to look in the state we're living in to find skylights that will meet code. DUH.


Work last night was highly entertaining.. All we did was set Valentines which meant I didn't have to deal with retarded people Yay! Cept.. I set one entire Isle minus 4 ft. Thats a killer.. oh well.. Just worries me that the vigourus activity will hurt a baby if its in there due to the heavy lifting! We will see here in about 10 or so days I think. Don't think I am because I don't feel any different but I guess you don't HAVE to feel different.. I always think you do.

So I had so much more to type.. this is what I get for not doing it last night Haha.. I keep yawning now! Think I might try to go catch a few more Z's. OH I do remember one thing.. I think my eyes are changing.. Cause my eyes are constantly blurry lately.. and have been twitching.. and Hurt .. like my eyeball... is sore? I need to go see the Eye doctor its been a while!! Like.. Years! Just something else to add to the list to do when Danny gets in the AF with the awesome insurance :)

OH and Stacey Just found out that they are sending Travis home when Gideon is born for good not just 10 days!!! YAY! My Godson doesn't get to miss his Daddy too much ;)
And a Girls day is planned for the 18th... Hoping all goes well! I miss my Kayla!

Ok Back to catch some Z's ~Nicki

Long Weekend!

Had a long weekend, didn'd do much but thats ok by me!! I am no offically in my 2ww I'm suprised because I surged for 3 days this cycle!! (Don't know if thats bad or good haha) After this I have one more cycle of 50mg Clomid .. Wondering if we will go thru with it or not. Because...
Danny has 5lbs to loose and then will hopefully be signing papers for the AF, which I'm sure would then make it difficult to concive while he's going back and fourth to Denver!

I told him yesterday that if he was in the middle of all this ready to go to Basic that I would not do this last cycle of Clomid. He Didn't like that haha, But if he is so adamant about not missing anything it would be better if we wait till he gets back from both Basic and AIT, since his AIT will most likely be in California!( if he gets the field he wants, Aerospace) We will see that is so up in the air right now, but he doesn't want to miss a thing! I told him he wouldn't miss much but me complaining hahah, Plus if I need anything I will have my parents and friends.. Yes his Mom lives here.. but.. She's a bitch and she feels the same way about me The feeling is mutal.

As for other news.. the wind is blowing like crazy! Expecting snow tonight.. I'm ready for spring.. so I can plant my garden! Plus I need to start getting everything ready for Stacey's baby shower! She is one of my best friends, he husband just got deployed to Iraq.. Uck for 6 months and most likely will not be home for the birth.. ( Danny is terrified of this) She has asked me and Danny to be Godparents which we are SO thrilled for! I couldn't be happier for them because it has been a long road for them both :)! SO I have to get everything ready to have a wonderful baby shower for my GODSON! I've only been to 2 in my entire life... i've always wanted to plan something haha! We will see! I'll quit blubbering gotta get ready for work! BOO!

~Always Nicki

Hello There!

So I decided to start one of these things! Since I probably bore the ladies on my ferility fourm ;) But they are wonderfully supportive!

You will have to forgive me I am no english major!

A Little Background on us! Been married since July 21, 2007! Been together since December 25, 2005! Our names are Danny and Nicki :) And we couldn't be more in love and happy with our lives! We notice something was missing about a year after we got married always knew we wanted children someday and we thought why not start now? Well we decided we wanted to wait until we were married 2 years, but that didn't go according to plan we started in September 2008, a little over a year of being married! We didn't do anything to prevent pregnancy but if it happened it happened, had my yearly pap and asked the doctor, it had only been 3 months at the time. She gave us some tips as to where to start , we tried them after that appt, we were seriously ttc! After about 6 months we were still not pregnant , So I told Danny at my next pap which was only a few months away I would tell the Doctor it has been a year since ttc.

Well that came and went she recommend me to an OB, Which i'm still not sure i'm digging. She diagnosed me with PCOS.. Which frankly sucks! Danny Check out GREAT, since it was him we were worried about! Because at birth he had an undecended testicle, which we thought would cause problems, Nope its all me!
So she prescribed me Metformin 750 ER(extended release) in Oct 09 and to start Clomid the month after 11/09 Which yeilded in a BFN( Big Fat Negative) we thought it was going to be our miracle drug.. which she assured me it was going to be... Eer Wrong. I just finished my 2nd Cycle with Painful ovulation cramps which i've never felt before in my life! I am now in my 2nd 2 week wait which is the worst!!

I had a break down last night because of the fact i'm not being monitored like all the other girls on the board so I don't know if this is working or not.. Danny is trying to get into the AirForce.. He has 5lbs to loose.. ( I could have stood to loose 75lbs with him! ) We know it will be a better life ( since I grew up Military for 20 yrs of my life!) So All will be OK if we dont get Pg right away.. but still puts a damper on things.. I know were young.. but Times a ticking and we don't get any younger.. We just want a little bundle of joy that we can spend our time with and have great memories down the line! I hope our little Miracle arrives soon!!!


Thank you all for reading I hope I didn't bore you too much! I enjoy writing my feelings down, Its a great stress relief for me if you enjoy reading and following all is good with me!! ( I will rant about work and life on here haha who wouldn't?)

~Always Nicki