Quick Update!

Busy week ahead!

Had my CD 12 ultrasound on Monday..! I had a 17 mm and 12.5 mm follie!!! and TON under 10.. 6 on my right and 11 on my left... No mature on the left tho.. But thats ok! My Lining is an 8.3 :) so i'm happy with that!!! I hope that extra day he gave made those follies grow a little more!! Or maybe to have a few catch up ;)! I Trigger tonight.. or I should say Danny's giving me the trigger.. ACK! I'm nervous as hell... We go in @ 8 for danny to give his sample then 9:30 is the IUI! I'm praying that this works.. It would be such an AWESOME anniversary gift to both of us! Pray Pray! I have more but going to a Miche bag party super excited :D! More later!

CD1

Wahoo. AF finally arrived! In the middle of the night..I can honestly say.. that has never happened to me. What a mess... Yuck. Called the Dr.. Not doing a CD 3 u/s cause I just had one end of May. So CD 12 u/s schedualed for Monday the 27th :).. But my Dr. will be on vacation. Not cool cause I need to have paperwork filled out.. BOO! I hope she's back for my IUI tho :(

Its hot.. my swamp is SUCKING. I think danny killed it between replacing belt.. breaking bolt.. Ugh.. Its hot. I feel like i'm in Florida.. Minus the humdity.. its 8 PM and its 86 degrees... Wtf?

I'm going to bed cause It has AC in there...

~Nicki

Hoping and Praying...

That I do NOT start my period... because I cannot get my Femera.. Or ahold of the Dr.. Left a message yesterday because the prescription is requiring a preauthorization. Joy. Knew I should have filled it when I first got it.. son of a bitch.. If anything I will call Monday and see if that doesn't go thru if she will write me a back up script for Clomid..*ew* I have been feeling kinda crampy today.. which is weird.. my Boobs have been KILLING me everytime I take off my bra afterwork.. Ugh..


I'm in a horribly stressed out mood...

~Nicki

Wham-O

That what this week has felt like.. I found out that 2 friends are preggo.. one with her first.. the 2nd with her 3rd. I swear.. when will it be my turn? What did I deserve to not be able to have kids so easy? Why me!? Argh.. I'm so frustrated and I feel hopeless...

I don't know what to do! I'm still waiting for AF to show up.. So it looks like I'll have a late June early July IUI.. Which could possibly put my 2ww around our 4 year anniversary. Just hope and pray.


Me and Danny have talked.. we're totally OK with Twins.. Now I keep having vivid images of us getting a new car for me... and a new house. Because our house is big enough for 2 babies.. Toddlers.. another story hahah. And my car is a little too small. But I just have this gut feeling that we will have a girl.. and then another gut feeling thinking we will have twins.. Of course.. lord only knows when.

I'm going to take and hour nap before the CMA's Been working 5am to 2pm.. Its killer. But will hopefully work for our appts.

~Nicki

Waiting...

Just waiting for AF to arrive.. I still have about a week and half.. tourture I say. My Ovidril.. is tourting me starting at me in fridge. I need to still get my Femera tho... On a good note.. I have a new schedual... I am now working 5am to 2 pm.. let me tell you it sucks getting up.. but the day goes SO fast! All i'm doing is watering at work.. since no one else does it. So My back and feet are KILLING me right now... I did my first one today. But now i'm WIPED. I'm praying that this works for me.. so I don't have to leave or call off a ton for appts if need be!!! Except for the IUI itself. I'm still applying for intermitten leave.. just gotta.. go to the dr first.. COME ONE AF... ( I know its gonna be late because I want it to show up)

Something I didn't want to hear I heard.. One of Dannys best friends wife.. Is preggo.. Married Not even a year. Yeah.. *stab*

Anways.... We're going camping tomorrow? Yeah.. me camping hahah haven't been since I was like 8!!! I just wish we had an air matress... We're going to a lake.. I have no idea how to spell it. But yes.. Realxing, fishing.. listening to nothing but wilderness.... and watching the stars.. Oh and must not forget.. ROASTED MARSHMELLOWS!!! WOOT.

I am retaining water like crazy... Ugh This reminds me why I miss humidity and not dry heat.. Ugh. I think i'm going to take a few hours nap hahah and then pack when Danny gets home.

~Nicki

Off the Bandwagon...

Since the weekend.. I haven't been eating so great or exersicing.. compared to last week.. Mainly because i'm mentally and phsycially exaughsted.. So early to bed for me.. Like 10 min from now hahah! By 9 pm.. What!? That is unheard of in this household!!

Danny is getting really stressed at work.. and is brining it home agian.. I told him its got to stop.. They recently switched his Pod from regular offenders to OMI.. which are mentally ill offenders.. They think that you are constantly trying to poison or kill them.. If you tell them something they take it literally.. And he is the only Sgt in that pod.. Ugh. Its way too much for one Sgt to handle.. usually Pods have 2. He feels that if he asks to move to another pod with regular offenders.. that its failing.. Its So not. So I'm hoping he talked to his LT...
Why would they ever ask me if I want to work there!? I would totally fall apart! Working with inmates behind a door.. or in a yard.. not quite my thing.. I'm way to gullible!!

Ugh... Work sucked today! We have way to many flowers at work.. So much for looking like last year.. We'er already there!! Our Poor patio its crammed full!! They won't buy anything at full price.. they won't buy anything half off.. but god forbid.. we throw it away they want it for free? Nope, Sorry! Also.. everyone thinks that i'll throw all their plants in a bag and just let them get crushed.. What am I a guy?


Totally having a tooth problem.. Which like NEVER happens! My front left tooth has been really cold sensitive.. it sucks.. My mom being a dental hygenist looked at it and said that my gum is recceding.. Well Crap. Either I brush to hard.. My tooth is dying.. My mouth gaurd isn't fitting right or I smacked it some how and hurt my periodontal ligament.. (yeah who knew!) I really hope the tooth isn't dying :( A root canal I don't think would be fun on that... And My tooth would be bleached after that.. and I doubt would match my other tooth!! Talk about confidance killer.. I like my smile!!

Totally off to bed..~Nicki

Well.. Boo.

We had an Awesome Sunday.. we were outside like ALL DAY. Weeding the garden, planting new rose bushes ( which got eaten by something) thats where my picture came from :)! Just got alot acomplished! Then.. Monday roles around anxious for the appt/ ultrasound.. We waited a while cause they didn't have all my blood work nor my lap report.. Argh! Had my ultrasound everything looked fantastic.. just a tiny csyt like less that a centimeter.

Got some.. not so good news I guess? My AMH level.. sucks.. its on the low side of normal at 0.99 they like to see it above 2. Basically I have Dimished Ovarian Reserve... So just doing Clomid or Femera by itself went out the window.. We will be starting with Femera + IUI.. I'm praying this works.. I'm hoping my follies will be stimulated awesomly with just Femera and not have to move onto injectables. Or.. Even IVF..

So the plan now is.. wait for AF to start (since I just had an Ultrasound Monday) She said I won't have to have one CD 3. Take Femera CD 3-7, on either CD 11-13 for a follie check... then I will be instructed to take Ovadril.. (joy) then come in for the IUI 36 hrs later. I'm super nervous.. and hope that AF comes at a decent time..

I'm worried about work.. thats another problem. I could be doomed. Ugh... I'll let you know how that goes.. Just pray the are understanding.

I'm buying some books for Me and Danny and my mom so she can understand this better.. she thinks its so easy to deal with.. that I shouldn't have any stress.

We are hoping that IUI's are super expensive.. I will know how much Ovadril is tomorrow.. she recommened a mail order pharmacy which makes it less expensive? At least she said it does.. hahah We will see.
Working out lately has been good.. lost a few lbs.. cutting down to One soda a day water or juice the rest of the time.

Just praying and hoping to get thru this and have a bundle of joy at the end..

~Nicki