Official.

We are finally licensed foster parents in the State of Colorado! Only took forever!! So excited and nervous.. we will hopefully get a placement after coming back from vacation :) or it could take another few months.. all depends on what situations arise!!

I am quite frankly going bonkers.. Work tomorrow and then we're off and i'm super grouchy.. Aunt Flo is bound to show up any day.. Hows that for vacation!!?!?  UGH. oh well.. such is life.. I just want to go!  Right now.. Its bed for me because i'm so tired.

~Nicki

PS:I have lots to say but no brain function to do so.. an update blog soon I hope!

Getting Nervous!

I feel like we arr coming to the end of an adoption process if you will ! We have 2 more home study dates, tomorrow and then the next monday.. Yikes! Our one one interviews are tomorrow.. gah! We literally have almost everything.. like if we were get a placement tomorrow or miraculously get pregnant.. we'd be all set.. except for a bath, medicines, diapers and like butt paste lol!  I have clothes for both girls and boys.. in almost all sizes up too about 2t, I have bath toys, pacifiers, bottles, a boppy, playmat.. everything I could think of!!

There is no doubt in my mind any kiddo that comes into our home will be loved and spoiled as if it were our own.. I most defiantly have some fears.. cause it will be SO sudden that everything will change... I hope we smooth on in with a few bumps to be expected .. I think we will get a placement after we come back from Disney.. money wise I don't think a place ticket that soon before going will be feasible for us money wise :/ But if it comes down to it.. we will make it happen :). I'm just scared that nothing will work out day care wise and everything will fall apart at the seams.. Ugh. gonna have to sit down with hubby and go over everything again.. not to mention have to get our questions prepared before we say yes to any placement!  ( We can ask questions to make us feel good about the placement, type of abuse, siblings, handicaps, allergies etc)

JUST SO NERVOUS!!! I have no one to ask about anything.. everyone thinks the first placement we get will be our forever kiddo.. It doesn't always happen that way! Its a long process..I hope we are prepared for it, Guess i shouldn't say hope.. We ARE prepared for it.. Now If I can stop this shopping spree I'm on ;).. Needless to say.. Um The UPS man probably hates me LOL!

~Nicki

Yes I'm alive...

Just very busy with this thing we call life!


~Still doing training for Foster.. is only took them forever to get it to us and get everything situated... omg.. They were 'changing' things at the department.. thanks for the heads up.. guess its a taste of things to come.

~Doing CPR class this next wed.. Woo?

~Still getting crap done around house.. talked to a realtor..about maybe selling.. its still up in the air.. but doesn't look feesable .. We have out grown this house.. I have literally gone thru all of my belongings and everything I have.. I want to keep.. We need a garage hands down. But we're broke go figure.

~Have everything for the nursery just need to put it together.. Wishing it was for our own... Feeling pretty upset about that lately but I guess its normal..

~Wishing I could be doing treatments.. maybe soon?

~We literally spent all weekend outside.. it was beautiful.. PS: Grass in garden beds suckkkssss.

~Garden is planted and flower beds look pretty! Tree is trimmed lol.. Junk mostly hauled off!

~Disney in 138 days or so!  So busy.. life is defiantly getting in the way of all things :)


~Nicki

PS: Pretty sure i've missed a bunch! Hope a real update soon!!

We've been busy...

To say the least... We have a new shed for one! We started it on February 17th... we JUST finished it last weekend.. Like seriously.. it took FOREVER. Way longer than we wanted.. all thats left is to organize the inside and bring the Christmas out so a munchkin can have a closet :)

 Here's a couple photos!

 The walls.. We thought we were saving time by reusing the side walls.. Come to find out that our shed was 2 5ft sheds put together.. This house I swear.

 Almost all done painting :) and non leaning shed!  Nice and Sturdy :)

 Our deck is finally finished! Just have to stain it when the weather cooperates....Love it!

This was last summer when we did the base of the deck! 

 We found a bunch of stuff under the deck.. including about 20lbs of pink aquarium rocks.

 It was in pretty rough shape.. none of the wood used was pressure treated.. Which is like a no no. 

Anyways.. Happy that the major projects that will affect our home study is all done :) Now just a bunch of little stuff..Painting the nursery and putting down baseboards.. we finally found pieces to match out laminate floor to separate from the carpet.. can't think of the name.

So we haven't heard anything back from the girls at DHS... so hope all is going well. Will be calling on Monday and seeing when we can get some more class materials... We have core classes on Friday and Saturday.. and I need to get set up for CPR. So much left to do!

We are going up to my parents tomorrow because my Sister , Brother in Law and the kids are in town!! So we will stay 3 days up there and Danny's sister will stay here with the fuzzies. Pretty excited cause i'm on vacation for 10 whole days. So needed.. September was my last one!  Too long. As soon as I see how much vacation I get this year i'm putting in for July and September and then i'll probably take one after the new year since I *hopefully* get 3 weeks this year.. depending on average of hours worked.

Right now its currently snowing... and my sinuses are draining which is making me cough and have a scratchy throat... So i'm gonna veg out and find some dinner! Hope you all are well in Blog land!

Just to let you know...

I'm still alive we've been super busy....4 weeks of working outside rebuilding a shed.. Crazy.


All of our paper work is turned in, finger prints done and background check in the works!!!

More soon :) vacation is less than a week away!!!

~Nicki

Random things...

I'm bored.. since I got off at 8 I guess I could update this. Feeling a little unmotivated lately to write.. So a little bit of bullets and maybe a few sentences hahah! Oh and it will probably be all over the place!


~Rocky is turning into such a good boy :) I sat on the floor the other night and didn't get mauled! Except for being Licky Mc Lickerson. He must lick everything!

~Wrangler.. is turning into Mr. Old and Senile...! He is starting not to listen anymore and thinks that he can do everything brother can't.. Dork. Sorry buddy equal treatment here hahah!

~The Kitties.. are being the kitties..not much to report on them!

~ We started cleaning crap.. I was just over it! Everything we were keeping got boxed up and put in the closet, if it wasn't it got sold or thrown out! We got rid of the desk... we just didn't use it. It was huge and bulky.. we can get another if we need one.. although it will be smaller LOL!

~Our couches.. we hate them.. No more squishy couches in this house! Looking at a sectional.. this one is already falling apart and springs are coming out! UGH. Not impressed. New couches and a recliner are in our future.

~Officially done with One Main Financial!

~Disney World 2014 is a GO! We are praying that a munchkin gets to go to!! We will not be purchasing a dining plan this time around.. saving for all food purchases :) looks like it will be the way to go because we will have a full kitchen in the room so breakfast will be eaten there! Except maybe one day.. I will have Mickey waffles ;)

~Probably going Monday to get Finger prints and background done :) ! Need to finish our autobiographies too.

~Umm.. I've gone a little crazy.. With buying things LOL.. We have a crib.. $79 bucks.. down from 168.. And its convertible! Convertible car seat.. was 99 bucks.. got it for 40!! (its for the truck) Got our Travel system (stroller and carseat and base) with BRU trade in event! So on sale there too! Crazy! And other things.. clothes.. and a diaper bag :). Trying not to feel guilty about it.. I know I shouldn't.. but its WEIRD.. Like SUPER DUPER WEIRD!

~So ready to get the new shed up.. looks like we may have a few weeks *crossing fingers* of nice weatehr ahead!

So anyways.. can't remember if I mentioned.. the girl who went with us on our first appt with DHS. Did I mention she was crazy?  She was totally going to do this for the money and just show off the kid..I wanted to smack her.. OH.. and she wanted to get preggo at the SAME TIME!!!! Did I mention she's single? I just didn't understand.. like make my brain hurt. She said we should do our baby showers together.. I was like Um NO. I've waited this long to have one of my OWN.. you are not sharing in that! Tons of people are so happy for us and all want to throw me a shower! Everyone is so happy for us, which makes me feel so loved and overjoyed :).
   Yesterday.. she came up to me and said that she is leaving May 1st and is getting married May 9th. Umm.. Ok? Apparently she is getting back together with her ex boyfriend. She told me she was sorry she couldn't do foster to adopt with us.. (SIGH OF RELIEF) but she doesn't know why she would want to parent some other persons kid anyways... <<< EXACT WORDS. Seriously. Wow really? BUT you are going to be a step mom.. Um can we say calling the kettle black? She is just ALL over the place.. and today she is all i'm getting cold feet yadda yadda.. Of course you are because you have no idea what you want!  She says he's going to give his answer on Saturday.. so umm.. you proposed? She doesn't want to 'uproot' her self and move all the way to Alaska, but yet she loves him..  OMG.. its all so crazy.. She is so self centered and selfish.

Me and Danny have tried for so very long and wanted this so much.. We feel so very blessed having this wonderful support system and cannot wait for our journey to end with a munchkin in our home and hearts!

I guess she sounds crazy to me.. because we know what infertility it is.. and what it means to go thru it.. we still are, but we are at a different place now.  I probably sound horrible for saying this.. but she just isn't meant to be a mom.. She offered for be a surrogate.. just so she could help her self with her enodmetriosis. To me.. she just wants to be a mom to say she's a mom.. Me and Danny want to give  a child unconditional love and teach right from wrong and give compassion to other people and many other qualities you teach a human being.

That is all for now.. sorry its kinda long.. guess I had a lot to say :)

~Nicki

Continuing...

So anyways.. I feel like we are all over the place!! We started filling out paperwork, Danny got all upset over the fact that some of the stuff they need to know... oh well. So there's that. We will fill out some more this weekend :)

Last weekend we went up to Springs, because I needed work pants.. and we wanted to stop at a few places and price baby items. We picked out the Travel system we want, of course.. its not the cheapest but its not the most expensive either! The crib we want is at Wally World its a Broyhill.. the thing about cribs.. there are 500 colors and about 7 different styles that all vary just a smidge.. So why spend 500 bucks or more on a crib that I can get the same one at Wally for 199 and then my discount? Yeah lol its a convertible one just like all the others! So anyways.. we put the bedding on layaway (its Pooh of course :) ) I feel like we are going all over the place! We need to be doing stuff around the house.. but I just want to get everything!

Oi.. LOL Its just crazy this might really be happening! Everything will fall into place I'm sure, its just overwhelming right now.

I feel like everyone is happy for us (well I know they are) But everyone has told me.. people will buy us stuff.. where I don't think they will.. The first child we get  may not be the keeper. My mom really doesn't seem like she will get us anything.. apparently everything I'm picking out is too expensive.. maybe she just doesn't realize how expensive this stuff is??  But she feels like I shouldn't spend too much until we get our forever child? Well it could be the first one! Not to mention any child I have I will spoil rotten :) soo I dunno.. it just seems odd that someone would throw me a shower?  Maybe its just my brain..

Anyways.. there's another update :)

~Nicki

Nitty Gritty.

So.. lets get there.. down to the nitty gritty. We pretty much jumped in head first.. we had talked about it.. but a girl at work gave us the final push!

We are going to become certified foster parents with intent to adopt! Or you could just say Fost-adopt parents :)! We know its going to be a long road, but I don't think it will be as long as the one we're on now. We had a 2 hr. meeting yesterday with 2 DHS ladies, who were so nice! Needless to say it was  like brain overload and I had a huge headache ALL DAY.  I just wanted to sleep.  We got all the paper work to start filling it out and all the classes we need to do.. just have to set some up.

We decided we want just infants ( of course) Maybe later down the line a little older. I don't think we will do anything older than 2. So now..its a whirlwind to get everything we need together! She of course said it can go as fast and slow as we want it. Which is good lol. I'm going to try and stay grounded and keep myself together and not freak out going OMG this needs to be done etc.

So.. I've been looking at baby furniture and all the necessitates we will need to start.. (I'm sure i'll go over board) That's just my nature! The front and back porch are the first things to be done because of course they are SAFETY hazards.

Storage is another biggie I need a storage system in the cats room, were going to sell the huge computer desk and a few other things.

On the phone with my momma so i'll write more later :)

~Nicki

Snowing and a dead tree...

Its snowing outside and our poor Christmas tree has already died and it looks pretty sad :( . Not sure what happened.. but I almost want to go get another one.. but its way to late and the thought of decorating it again LOL.

I POAS at 6dp3dt.. way to early I know but I did anyways.. Then again 8dp3dt and it was neg.. I will admit I lost a little bit of hope. Still early but I was hoping that there would be some sort of a line. My blood test is Friday. I don't think I'll POAS again. I did pee 5 thousand times last night at work.. not sure what happened there. I guess I just keep looking for symptoms and I have none.. My boobs hurt last night but I'm blame progesterone and being in bra the whole day!

Plus one day of being back to work.. and I have HUGE bags under my eyes.. and I woke up at 9.. really...wtf? I go from looking all rested to crap instantaneously. Not cool.


I'm still tired it seems.. but I haven't worked in almost 2 weeks.. so thats probably why..I'm really hoping i'm in denial like our first IUI and i'm preggo.. I do keep talking to my belly.

Me and Danny are talking about what our next step will be.. he mentioned fostering/ fostering to adopt.. I don't even know where to start..Its very overwhelming..  I have never been around children for along periods of time.. I don't know how to talk to them or anything. An infant would be awesome . because well I can learn.. Danny on the other hand is like the child master.. I know your thinking why does this woman even want kids if she doesn't even know how to interact with them? I never grew up with younger cousins or younger siblings.. i'm the baby.. Danny got to experience it all.. The only interaction i've ever had is with Gideon and now Chloe.. and occasionally other kids.. but never for very long. Just makes it tough for me to make these kids of decisions.

We will continue talking if the outcome is negative.. I just don't have that feeling that it worked. I'm trying to stay positive.. Yesterday my first day back to work was almost to much.. all the questions and people saying they are crossing their fingers or do this do that, do you have any symptoms.. Yeah.. About to go insane.

I have to go finish my cookies and then eat some lunch before work.. will have to leave super early today cause i'm grandma driver in the snow ;)

Praying very hard that one little baby hung on.. I would hate to be talking to an empty uterus.

~Nicki