Never enough...

Time in  a month, week, year to accomplish what you want too! Sorry for the Hiatus.. kinda needed. We have been trying to keep busy, i'll try to recap everything that has happened since September...!

I seriously cannot believe it is December.. After Disney, where we had a blast with my family!!! Getting to spend time with my brother, sister and her family plus my mom and dad was a blast! It had  been too long, I wanna go back now.. but it will be a few years till our next visit! Of course..my period showed up.. and I forgot to pack enough necessary items.. I will say.. tampax.. in cardboard applicators.. OMG Worst ever. Travel on the way back was a disaster.. Almost like our trip down on our honeymoon stuck  for 10 hours in  Dallas.. Only this time.. We never left Orlando.. Because that was the day someone caught the air traffic control center on fire in Chicago.
   We had boarded the plane, luggage and ALL. Only to be told to deboard as well as our luggage.. and go to the help desk to try and get another flight..no one is going thru Chicago.. AWESOME. That took about and hour.. only our lady didn't pay attention and our next flight plane was coming FROM Chicago.. Delay number 1,2,3 and 4. We were supposed to leave Orlando at 8 am.. we had been up since 4:45am? We left Orlando around 4:30pm, yeah for real. We miss BOTH the connecting flights  she gave us.. the last seriously by 5 MINUETS. We were put on a standby flight to Denver... Mind that our car is in Colorado Springs..that plane was to leave at 9pm.. we prayed that we would get on. Thank god we did.. Danny's mom came and got us in Denver.. drove us to Springs airport and we got our car and drove home.. Got home at 2am. Ugh.. Then got up the next day and got our luggage in springs lol.

   October just kinda flew by.. Danny's grandmother passed away.. that took all of October.. hardly ever home. Had a serious Indian summer... its still going.. Been in the 60s :( ! We had a potential placement... it fell thru. We started attending a church and we love it! We go to life group on Tuesdays  and just enjoy it very much :) its so nice to have support and someone to go to when we need some help with anything! I had my pap.. and then talked about anxiety.. and started some medicine for that.. cause I had enough.. thankfully its a low dose and not an antidepressant. So far so good, of course some anxiety is still there, but it's so much better!  That about sums up October, very BLAH and Drama filled to say the least.

November.. My brother came for Thanksgiving. which was wonderful :) our visit wasn't long enough :(. He deploys again in January for his 3rd deployment over seas.  Work was crazy busy and exhausting...We got a call for a placement.. a new born and a 4 year old.. Yeah... We said yes.. and then it just was NOT going to work.. She was terrified of Rocky.. Sorry they are my babies too... I am not the type of person to shove them outside or leave them in a kennel all day.. Because she's fine when he is in there.. Nope sorry.. ( she had been bit by a dog and his exciting nature scared her to the point of screaming tears and running from him) She was A OK with Wrangler.. cause he's old and gentle.. Rocky is 2 1/2 years old full of puppy. Also.. my anxiety went thru the roof.. like physically ill anxiety.. NO sleep at all that night.. for the fact I don't know how to parent a 4 year old.. Infant.. I can learn with them, 4 yr old's already have some sort of routine and language barriers.. Ugh. Yeah we were a mess. This brought up a host of problems that me and danny are trying to work thru!  The lord said they were not to be our kiddos... Back to square one. Not much else but running errands and all the normal things.. don't think we had but two days at home that month LOL

And then BAM December.. Wait what!?!  Yeah holy moly.. Christmas shopping will be done  Tuesday... and then I need to start baking my goodies.. cause um year i'm gonna loose my mind LOL The month is quickly passing.. We will get our tree Tuesday too lol We just got decorated... I don't know where this year has gone.  Gotta get packages in  the mail.. and I don't think were doing Christmas cards again this year.. But that isn't the end of the world.. Although it seems like it sometimes! We will survive.. If only I could find a company that will print address on the envelopes LOL!

That's all for now! Off to go order furbabies Christmas presents...!

~Nicki

Can we go back yet?? Days 1 and 2 :)

We got home on Saturday night.. we had a very good trip! The flight down was so uneventful it was awesome! Other than being tired and having shitty side effects from my medicine all was good.. I had to stop taking my medicine.. because 2 days before we left I got 4 hours total of sleep in 2 days.. Yeah I wasn't a nice person LOL. So insomnia was one side effect.. then I felt like I couldn't breath or catch my breath on the plane..omg the worst.

 When we got there.. we got to our room and had about 35-40 min before my sister and her family came down to meet us for dinner!! So I took a quick shower and then we headed down to the board walk :) Oh it was beautiful!!  Loved our hotel!

 Me, Angie, Lee, Connor and Madison

 Danny, Me, Angie, Connor and Madison

The View from our room! If you look straight ahead you can see the Epcot ball!

We were about a 10 min walk from the backside of Epcot and a 15-20 min walk to Hollywood Studios :)

Dinner was fabulous! My niece and nephew are the cutest things ever. They warmed up to us fast which made me happy! We had dinner and then walked all the way around the boardwalk which was nice! We will get to see them again in March because they are coming out here! That's exciting :). That night we went to Downtown Disney.. It was super busy there because everyone can go there! I had Ghiradehli Ice cream... Yum. We didn't even attempt the Lego store.. because another symptom was anxiety.. which I was having a bunch of.. and shortness of breath.. so we called it a night around 10 ish and caught a bus back to the resort and hoped down to the pool for a quick swim!  After that we called it a night :)

The next morning we headed to Hollywood studios! I'm not a huge fan of this park.. Only for Indian Jones and Star Wars lol and the shows most of the rides are outdated. But it still nice to walk around :). We had dinner at Mama Melrose.. OMG it was to DIE for! Best steak ever.. 

 At our resort that morning before heading over!

 At the entrance :)

 The hat!

 We got to meet Mike and Sully from Monsters U (Sully even hat the retainer LOL)

And Fantasia Mickey :) !!

We were pretty dead by the end of this day.. You walk alot.. LOL Danny spent a ton of money in the Star Wars store hahah. I did make a little R2D2 guy :) he was cute! Danny made his own light saber and a Yoda R2D2!  This was the night I decided to stop taking my medicine cause.. the side effects were not treating me well. The Fantasmic show was pretty sweet :) We were going to ride Tower of Terror.. because I never have.. but then Danny wasn't feeling well so we skipped it.. Maybe next year! 

That's all for now!! Don't want to make this post so huge its too long to read :) I'll do Animal Kingdom and Mickey's Not So Scary Halloween Party  next time!! And I'll eventually just do and all pictures post!

~Nicki 

PS: My baby dog gets neutered tomorrow :( Poor Rocky!! 

Alot.

Those are all my meds that I am going to need for IVF... Yikes!! To include 2 vials of 900 iu of Follistim, 2 350 iu of Follistim, Lupron, HCG Trigger, Endometrin, Vivelle Patch ( totally don't know what this is for), pain meds and  Ginormous Prenatal pills, plus tons of needles and such LOL. Just a a waiting game right now. Have our first appt on the 8th! It's coming up fast!

Weight watchers is going good this time around :) had a few bad days but who doesn't! I can't complain i've only lost about 3lbs but hey you gotta start somewhere! Plus got a new scale LOL our old one weighed at least 3 lbs more than the Drs office. Now we're even!

Rocky got weighed today at almost 7 months he weighs 56.4 lbs! He' so skinny I don't know where it's all at! Probably in his noggin hahah. He's gotten so big and is such a joy to have around :)!

Well Off to get things ready for work and get some sleep!!

Keeping Busy!

That's what we are doing around here! Rocky finished up his classes :) and he did great! Gotta figure out where to start the duck thing LOL. Its all new to us!

Keeping the house clean.. well cleaner than it ever has been LOL. Just need to put the finishing touches on the bathroom.. But we need to be home to do that. Which it seems we haven't been...  Its kinda driving me nuts. Like i'll be by myself today but have plenty to keep me busy and then tomorrow we have an appt at the bank in springs to see about getting and actual loan for IVF. Again.. not some over the phone company.. so it will be a one try for us.. Maybe a FET. Kinda sucks but.. such is life.. and I don't know if I want to tell any one about it this time around.. Haven't told Danny that tho.

Finding a new car for me is becoming a pain.. I've even test drove stuff other than the Ford Edge. I really want it.. So i'm going to get one.. eventually I've even knocked stuff out of it I want just to get the payments where we want them. We walked away from a really good deal on a Toyota Venza all because we didn't know what kinda payments the IVF loan would give us. So we will see where tomorrow puts us.. We just don't want to be back to where we were as far as money.. we are able to enjoy things now.. or buy stuff just because we can.. If we wanted to. We did splurge on one thing... a 47" TV :) our old one is only a 32 which is now in the bedroom.. I think we did pretty good.. Our 32 was 500 something.. the new TV was 548.. I think we're doing good! LOL, Early Christmas for us :)!

Well off to do stuff for the day! Some cleaning, laundry, dishes, catch up on shows and some scrap booking!

~Nicki

Still waiting...

Yep.. My period was due the 3/4th.. its now the 9th.. GO FIGURE. Life is just going by.. kind of in a lull right now.. everything seems so monotonous. Danny is just in a holding pattern waiting for his official hire call for the Feds...  We're both pretty stressed with all this change.. and waiting for IVF to get going. It seems we're never home.. but its kinda of self induced.. the last thing I want to do is clean my house LOL.We're only home long enough to do some dishes.. and my laundry on the weekends.. Last weekend was nice tho.. it was beautiful

 We took Rocky and Wrangler to the River so Rocky can get the lay of  water :) need to take him somewhere where he can SWIM. There isn't many calm spots on the river.. and not many lakes around here. Everything is going well with him.. but I don't feel like I can get much done.. because I have to watch his every move.. the only time I'm not is when I'm working out... he's in his kennel.. for 20 min.

That.. is NOT going well.. I started the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred.. and have barely lost any weight since starting weight watchers over a month ago.. and since starting the work out.. what gives?? When I actually give it a go.. nothing works. Ugh.. I'm getting super frustrated.

I guess tomorrow its opening weekend of the Renaissance Festival. I asked Danny if he wanted to go he said sure.. but I'm not comfortable leaving Rocky in his crate for 8 hrs yet.. he's still to young. So..needless to say Rocky and Wrangler will be spending that day at Grandmas...so that way he doesn't freak out.. he still has big brother there. So hopefully a day of relaxation.. well as much as you can get walking around LOL and some fun :)

Right now.. I'm tired.. I wish it was time for Danny to get home.. I'm tired of smelling fire's at night.. its horrible for my allergies...

Here's some recent Pics :)

 BAT DOG!

 What did I do?

<3
~Nicki

Sorry!

My bad! I should have updated sooner!

Appt Last Monday for our IVF consult went well :) She would like me to loose at least 20lbs.. so We started that.. Its a slow process.. :( But hopefully I will get a kick start and loose it! So it looks like IVF in August or September!! We have to start getting everything in place for financing and time off etc. But we are so excited that it may finally be OUR turn! So it looks like if all goes well ( come one I have the perfect bun oven!).. We will have a May or June baby :)

All things on the puppy front are right on track. My mom thinks i'm crazy for getting another one. The way I see it.. Its my life i'm tired of waiting for approval for things. So.. we're doing it! We need something to keep us occupied and our mind off things! Plus I'm sure Wrangler would love a buddy ;) He adores it when Bailey comes over! So today I'm stalking the UPS man waiting for new toys, bowls and a kitty scratching post to be delivered! Its on its way.. So HURRY UP! Cause then we wanna go to Petsmart to get a few things.. IE a Kennel and leashes, and a few toys for Wrangler cause he needs to be spoiled too!

Danny has his Federal interview on Monday.. I'm so nervous and i'm sure he is too. I Hope all goes well I'll be a mess waiting for him to come home! It will be SO good for us if this happened right now.. Like beyond awesome.

 My house is tiny we have been rearranging and moving things around like crazy, and getting rid of things. How are we going to fit a Baby, 2 adults, 3 cats and 2 dogs.. in our little house!? If we have twins.. we HAVE to get another house lol! I won't complain there.. its the looking at houses that suck! I would like to find a more permante house with an actual landscaped yard, room for gardening, trees, 4 bedroom 2 bath house. Also.. no major fixing like this house needs.. Ugh.

Anyways.. Back to stalk the UPS man :)

~Nicki

Well..

Some exciting things in our neck of the woods are happening :)

First off.. We're getting a PUPPY!

His Name is going to be Rocky :), he pretty much picked us.. Gave me kisses and wagged his tail!! He will be coming home sometime in may :) I never thought i'd own a lab.. because I know they can be terrors as a puppies.. But i'm going to do my damndest to have a well trained/behaved puppy! We haven't had a puppy in 5 years... so this should be interesting LOL!

In other news.. I made my IVF consult/ Next step for Monday.. MONDAY. ACK! Need to write down all my questions and go from there. So many!

Also.. This weekend is gonna be pretty busy :) Sunday gotta go Grocery shopping and then come back and clean up this house get it puppy proofed and rearranged!  Then work out in the garden/ yard :) Lots to do!! Then Monday is Out appt @ 10 then Danny has a Chiro appt at 3 then we will go to Mike and April's for dinner :) and see cute little Chloe! She is such a doll! Growing so fast!

Danny is working all the overtime he can cause they are not paying out for comp time.. So come June they HAVE to because July is their new fiscal year for the state :) I'll take the extra money!! So tonight he's working a double :( I get the bed to myself which sometimes is nice.. but tonight i'm not tired so I won't be able to fall asleep ugh. So off to shower to try and relax and hit the hay. Tomorrow is FRIDAY!

~Nicki