Just to let you know...

I'm still alive we've been super busy....4 weeks of working outside rebuilding a shed.. Crazy.


All of our paper work is turned in, finger prints done and background check in the works!!!

More soon :) vacation is less than a week away!!!

~Nicki

Random things...

I'm bored.. since I got off at 8 I guess I could update this. Feeling a little unmotivated lately to write.. So a little bit of bullets and maybe a few sentences hahah! Oh and it will probably be all over the place!


~Rocky is turning into such a good boy :) I sat on the floor the other night and didn't get mauled! Except for being Licky Mc Lickerson. He must lick everything!

~Wrangler.. is turning into Mr. Old and Senile...! He is starting not to listen anymore and thinks that he can do everything brother can't.. Dork. Sorry buddy equal treatment here hahah!

~The Kitties.. are being the kitties..not much to report on them!

~ We started cleaning crap.. I was just over it! Everything we were keeping got boxed up and put in the closet, if it wasn't it got sold or thrown out! We got rid of the desk... we just didn't use it. It was huge and bulky.. we can get another if we need one.. although it will be smaller LOL!

~Our couches.. we hate them.. No more squishy couches in this house! Looking at a sectional.. this one is already falling apart and springs are coming out! UGH. Not impressed. New couches and a recliner are in our future.

~Officially done with One Main Financial!

~Disney World 2014 is a GO! We are praying that a munchkin gets to go to!! We will not be purchasing a dining plan this time around.. saving for all food purchases :) looks like it will be the way to go because we will have a full kitchen in the room so breakfast will be eaten there! Except maybe one day.. I will have Mickey waffles ;)

~Probably going Monday to get Finger prints and background done :) ! Need to finish our autobiographies too.

~Umm.. I've gone a little crazy.. With buying things LOL.. We have a crib.. $79 bucks.. down from 168.. And its convertible! Convertible car seat.. was 99 bucks.. got it for 40!! (its for the truck) Got our Travel system (stroller and carseat and base) with BRU trade in event! So on sale there too! Crazy! And other things.. clothes.. and a diaper bag :). Trying not to feel guilty about it.. I know I shouldn't.. but its WEIRD.. Like SUPER DUPER WEIRD!

~So ready to get the new shed up.. looks like we may have a few weeks *crossing fingers* of nice weatehr ahead!

So anyways.. can't remember if I mentioned.. the girl who went with us on our first appt with DHS. Did I mention she was crazy?  She was totally going to do this for the money and just show off the kid..I wanted to smack her.. OH.. and she wanted to get preggo at the SAME TIME!!!! Did I mention she's single? I just didn't understand.. like make my brain hurt. She said we should do our baby showers together.. I was like Um NO. I've waited this long to have one of my OWN.. you are not sharing in that! Tons of people are so happy for us and all want to throw me a shower! Everyone is so happy for us, which makes me feel so loved and overjoyed :).
   Yesterday.. she came up to me and said that she is leaving May 1st and is getting married May 9th. Umm.. Ok? Apparently she is getting back together with her ex boyfriend. She told me she was sorry she couldn't do foster to adopt with us.. (SIGH OF RELIEF) but she doesn't know why she would want to parent some other persons kid anyways... <<< EXACT WORDS. Seriously. Wow really? BUT you are going to be a step mom.. Um can we say calling the kettle black? She is just ALL over the place.. and today she is all i'm getting cold feet yadda yadda.. Of course you are because you have no idea what you want!  She says he's going to give his answer on Saturday.. so umm.. you proposed? She doesn't want to 'uproot' her self and move all the way to Alaska, but yet she loves him..  OMG.. its all so crazy.. She is so self centered and selfish.

Me and Danny have tried for so very long and wanted this so much.. We feel so very blessed having this wonderful support system and cannot wait for our journey to end with a munchkin in our home and hearts!

I guess she sounds crazy to me.. because we know what infertility it is.. and what it means to go thru it.. we still are, but we are at a different place now.  I probably sound horrible for saying this.. but she just isn't meant to be a mom.. She offered for be a surrogate.. just so she could help her self with her enodmetriosis. To me.. she just wants to be a mom to say she's a mom.. Me and Danny want to give  a child unconditional love and teach right from wrong and give compassion to other people and many other qualities you teach a human being.

That is all for now.. sorry its kinda long.. guess I had a lot to say :)

~Nicki

Continuing...

So anyways.. I feel like we are all over the place!! We started filling out paperwork, Danny got all upset over the fact that some of the stuff they need to know... oh well. So there's that. We will fill out some more this weekend :)

Last weekend we went up to Springs, because I needed work pants.. and we wanted to stop at a few places and price baby items. We picked out the Travel system we want, of course.. its not the cheapest but its not the most expensive either! The crib we want is at Wally World its a Broyhill.. the thing about cribs.. there are 500 colors and about 7 different styles that all vary just a smidge.. So why spend 500 bucks or more on a crib that I can get the same one at Wally for 199 and then my discount? Yeah lol its a convertible one just like all the others! So anyways.. we put the bedding on layaway (its Pooh of course :) ) I feel like we are going all over the place! We need to be doing stuff around the house.. but I just want to get everything!

Oi.. LOL Its just crazy this might really be happening! Everything will fall into place I'm sure, its just overwhelming right now.

I feel like everyone is happy for us (well I know they are) But everyone has told me.. people will buy us stuff.. where I don't think they will.. The first child we get  may not be the keeper. My mom really doesn't seem like she will get us anything.. apparently everything I'm picking out is too expensive.. maybe she just doesn't realize how expensive this stuff is??  But she feels like I shouldn't spend too much until we get our forever child? Well it could be the first one! Not to mention any child I have I will spoil rotten :) soo I dunno.. it just seems odd that someone would throw me a shower?  Maybe its just my brain..

Anyways.. there's another update :)

~Nicki

Nitty Gritty.

So.. lets get there.. down to the nitty gritty. We pretty much jumped in head first.. we had talked about it.. but a girl at work gave us the final push!

We are going to become certified foster parents with intent to adopt! Or you could just say Fost-adopt parents :)! We know its going to be a long road, but I don't think it will be as long as the one we're on now. We had a 2 hr. meeting yesterday with 2 DHS ladies, who were so nice! Needless to say it was  like brain overload and I had a huge headache ALL DAY.  I just wanted to sleep.  We got all the paper work to start filling it out and all the classes we need to do.. just have to set some up.

We decided we want just infants ( of course) Maybe later down the line a little older. I don't think we will do anything older than 2. So now..its a whirlwind to get everything we need together! She of course said it can go as fast and slow as we want it. Which is good lol. I'm going to try and stay grounded and keep myself together and not freak out going OMG this needs to be done etc.

So.. I've been looking at baby furniture and all the necessitates we will need to start.. (I'm sure i'll go over board) That's just my nature! The front and back porch are the first things to be done because of course they are SAFETY hazards.

Storage is another biggie I need a storage system in the cats room, were going to sell the huge computer desk and a few other things.

On the phone with my momma so i'll write more later :)

~Nicki

As good as time as any!

To reflect on the year... It was a relatively quiet year on all fronts.. Minus the floor and fires.. We got some things accomplished :)

~We have most of a front porch.. just needs rails then staining!
~ An almost completed spare bathroom just touch ups needed :)
~New carpet!
~No news on the baby front... just a quiet year paying off debts in that department.
~Silly puppy nonsense.. taking 2 vet trips this year for emergency purposes! He thought he needed to eat mole poison and have horrible no good awful come out of his bum.
~Getting the car fixed, and new tires.
~Trip to Disney!! And the start of planning another this September!
~My brother came home for this first time in 6 years for Christmas! We had a wonderful one by the way!

I'm sure there are lots of other little things.. its wasn't a terrible year.. but I do pray that it was the last one with out a little one... I'm not sad to see it go.. Let this new year be a good one filled with joy, peace, love and no hardships!

~Nicki

Wow!

Way to busy!! But I wanted to drop in and Wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I hope to have a year wrap up soon! Have been super busy with work.. leaving me just exhausted!  Soon <3 p="">

~Nicki

The Holiday season.

I'm going to attempt to throw together a blog post. Lets just put it this way.. These past few months has been a whirlwind! Every since October its like it hasn't slowed down!! I haven't felt much like blogging.. because there really hasn't been much to blog about.. Other than the fact me and Danny are trying to work on getting back to where we were.

While he did his first year at the feds his schedule was all over the place. We rarely had the same days off.. I got used to being by myself and just letting Danny take care of the bills.. while I took care of the house.. We both got complacent where we were.. so when we did spend time together, all we did was argue and bicker.. We were both at our wits end.. and one point.. I was just so frustrated and done.. I mentioned a horrible word.. I regret it now. We both needed to take a step back and asses what was happening. We are doing a lot better now, snapping is starting to subside and we are thinking before we just bark at each other and have calmer 'converstations'. We still have a ways to go but we will get there!

As for baby making.. I wanted to try naturally again.. BUT Of course schedules and timing is never right.. I tried really hard month before last.. of course nothing occurred. We're just living right now enjoying things.. of course it sucks.. but right now we can't do anything.. so we just are right now.. and that's it on that... We will just keep doing what we're doing!

The holidays have approached SO fast.. since Thanksgiving was so late this year it has just has creeped up really fast.  Almost all my shopping is done, thankfully we aren't going all out this year.. well maybe with Danny LOL.

I'll call that good for now.. Hopefully to update more later.. Danny just got home with dinner :)