Maybe One day....

I'll get to build baby furniture in my spare room.. and think about painting and decorating...

Went over to Mike and Aprils.. haven't been over there in a while.. Went for dinner and to help him move stuff out of spare room...which will soon be their nursery. Then it turned into us helping them build their baby furniture :( It was gorgeous... She's due in January.


CD12 u/s tomorrow.. if my LH comes back neg.. Long story short... I got a pos OPK CD 9 went in for U/s didn't look like I was ovulating.. Cyst was still there but no mature follies.. had 1 at 11mm then a few smaller ones that might catch up. So we will see I was so hopeful for this cycle.. Cause it was going So smooth!! Ugh.. Praying hard that bw is negative in AM. We will be discussing injectables tomorrow too.. I really hope we don't have to go there!

Heres that tomorrow will be an awesome day with huge Follies and a trigger Tuesday :) with IUI wed.. Any well wishes and prayers gladly appreaciated!!

~Nicki

Sometimes..

You hope your doing the right thing and then others you wish you would have done the wrong things.. Damned if you do Damned if you don't...

I try to help alot of people and sometimes its just not worth it.. I've learned this over the years some people aren't worth helping. I have a friend at work that she has helped a lot people with money and such giving them loans.. only to get nothing in returned or screwed over..and she is the sweetest lady. She wanted to get a loan to buy a motorcycle or scooter because her truck is too expensive to drive all year long.. She lives by herself and lives on a wal-mart salary... But because she has helped so many people and they never paid her back etc.. She can't get a loan :( Makes me sad!

Also.. when you try to help someone or give them good adivce never fails it backfires. This is why I'm trying to stop giving advice or helping people because I never get anything in return. And we totally just had a powersuge at 10:30 Am...The sun is shining and bam... Oi vey. ANYWAYS.

This is what i've learned over my 25 years of existance.. What happened to treat people the way you want to be treated? I just try to give some adivce when its needed.. you don't have to take it.. Like one of my friends says.. Take it with a grian of salt. All I ever do is just give adivce. Hardly anyone gives me any.. which sometimes would be nice!

Just saying...

Why does life have to be so complicated and miserable sometimes? Not enjoying this rut!

Fall...

I am so ready for fall... I'm tired of the 90-100 degree heat everyday! I left work last night and the bank read 80 degrees at 10:30pm.. Ugh. I was thinking I might wanna do fall crops but.. Its too hot they won't do anything! Oh well.. the garden isn't doing well this year since its been so hot and so little rain. Makes you wonder what kind of winter we will have... Will it be Cold and Dry? Or Mild and Wet? Or Cold and Wet? Or however many more combinations you can make out of that!

On the fertility front... i'm on CD 7 last day of femara.. Need to order my trigger shot.. Got my CD 12 u/s on Monday. This cycle seems laid back? It just doesn't seem like its going very fast, but i'm ok with that! I still feel very positive about this cycle.. I'm ready to have a munchkin... or 2!

I'm so over this waiting thing.. I can only imagine how some other ladies I know have to wait so long :(. Just so ready to wake up and not have to just take care of myself,Danny, or my furries :( Ready to push a stroller around the block and let a baby experience being outside for the first time, just to see the look on their cute little face... anything! I just want someone new to cuddle and squish and love with kisses.. Too much to ask? Guess so...

I slept to late this morning.. So I have a headache.. but kinda from the femara too.. had one lingering yesterday.. Ugh. I am excited about having more motivation to do stuff!!! Like.. Organize and get rid of crap!Our house is overwhelmed.. and since we can get a new house anytime soon.. this will have to do! (Boy would I love a new house!!) But at the same time.. I love my house :) Just need it to not be so cluttery and dusty.. I HATE Dusting.. and so does Danny.. I need a maid haha. Just to dust.

GAH! I need another vacation.. Thinking about asking Larry for the week of thanksgiving off.. and maybe swing it to go see my Aunt in Wisconsin!? Its been about 6 yrs since i've been.. I miss that vacation. We will see *fingers crossed* We're already skimping with money.. due to Tags and A possible injectables cycle at the end of Sept/ early Oct. I'm praying to the good lord that this one works! So maybe we will save enough to go up to Wisconsin :) And I could get to see my Brother! Its been like 2 years.. Too LONG! I miss by Bud :( And maybe I'll be preg :D! PRAY PRAY PRAY!!!!!

So...

Because Volt wanted to eat Onions.. Danny decided to hunt him down with the nerf gun and shoot him hahah.

I am sad.. because we are going to loose Jason on DVR :(!!!! We don't have a DVD recorder.. Boo.. We are canceling our Bresnan service after 6 yrs.. because their premiums are about to shoot up 30 bucks.. which means we will be paying 180 some odd bucks. NO THANKS!

Bring on Qwest and Driect Tv. Danny is excited because we get 3 free months of NFL Sunday ticket.. and I'm excited because I Get Free HBO for 3 months.. Yes I get to see The Tudors! (another TV addiction ;) )

So.. we had some money troubles this month.. but thankfully got them figured out and we can cycle if this month if this one doesn't work.. Which I doubt its going to.. I'm craving chocolate.. Majoy Aunt Flo Sign...
I tested 10dpip.. *slaps hand* bad! I got a faint line.. but I think it was left over trigger.. Then I was stupido and tested this afternoon.. Whats wrong with me!?!?! It was Stark white one line test... Boo. Oh well.. I have ONE test left and will probably test Tues.. Which will be 14dpo and 13diui.

I'm throwing the idea in my head around that I might wanna add injects? Terrified of the cost tho I won't lie. Not sure.. i'll see what Dr.M says if AF arrives again.

Random moment: Totally watching CMT Music Festival on TV.. I TOTALLY WANT ONE OF THOSE HUGE GUITAR DRINKS!!!! *Dances to Luke Bryants Country Girl Shake it For me* Which by the way.. I'm dying to go drinking and dancing with my girls....


Which hopefully will be soon! Having a girl day soon to go to IKEA! I hear its pretty awesome :)

Work.. Is sucking right now.. I don't know if i'll ever get preg with all the heavy lifting I keep doing! It makes me SO MAD. But I can't not perform my job.. and at the same time I don't want to move to another position as I love my area I work in. Ugh.. So frustrating.. I could take an LOA for a week to implant then come back *lmao* don't think they'd like that once a month tho!

Since we have like NO groceries in the house right now... I wanted popcorn.. didn't have non.. so we will be roasting marshmellows soon after this show is over :) <3 Which Danny just randomly danced with me to 'Just a Kiss' By Lady Antebellum I love him.. he's pretty awesome!

I think thats enough for now.. Almost Jason time.. Which OMG Totally just rememberd.. HE MIGHT BE COMING TO COLORADO IN OCTOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blah!

Is it testing day yet!? Of course not.. I'm going bonkers... Ugh 8 more days! I still have a bunch of mixed feelings about this cycle! Totally not sure what the out come will be.. As for right now.. trigger is pretty much out of my system and tiredness has gone away.. last time.. It stayed. Guess We will see.. But now I gotta get ready for work. Boo.

10 4

IUI done. 23 million after wash and good motility :) Eggie.. meet your new best friend and make me a munchkin!!!

At home just relaxing.. and praying.. and Now i'm going to take a nap :) Cause... I'm super sleepy.. its a day late *lol* I was good yesterday. Today another story probably cause we were up early.. Supposed to have more monsoon rain that may cause flash flooding! Bring it on my garden needs it.. and so does my pocketbook so it doesn't have to pay 100 water bills...

Happy Napping!

~Nicki

Looks like..

We will be having our 2nd IUI Wed. I will trigger tonight @ 9.. which means Danny gets to stab me in the butt.. Since I know what it feels like I will NOT freak out and make myself sick hahah because it was a piece of cake!!

Apparently I have a beautifully shaped lining and thickness :D. Cause i'm cool like that. But only ONE Follie! Boo. But hey all it takes it 1 and 1! Its at 19.5 woot.

SO Not looking forward to the symptoms of trigger tho.. the last time.. the day after trigger I felt like I had sleepyness DUMPED on me.. Like I almost fell OVER sleepy! Oh well.. BRING IT ON. I just hope that if I implant it will not give me symptoms like it did the last time... IE going home because i thought i was going to throw up and pass out.. I think that is SO weird that my body responded to implantation that way...Guess I'm just a weirdo ;)

~Nicki