Happy New Year.

Goodbye 2010 .. Hello 2011!!! Here is to having a much better year finacially and nothing falling apart!! Maybe a Baby?

This year has been good and bad just like everything else :) But most of all, I have grown into a stronger person through this infertility struggle.. and my marriage is stronger because of it. So for that I am thankful in a weird way ;) I love my husband dearly and cannot wait to see what 2011 brings. I do hope a new decade means a bright new future for us. We are trying to do alot of stuff differently BUT not making resolutions.. because we never follow them ;) So just TRYING is good enough for us!!!

Here's to trying to be healthier and more at peace with this infertility struggle in 2011. May you all find peace and happiness.

~Much Love, Nicki..

Merry Christmas!!

We had a good day.. untill Danny had to go to work.. That just blew a big one.

Santa brought me lots of goodies :) I got
- Shirt I wanted from Old Navy.. except the under shirt.. they apparently did not have it in my size. And Online is OUT. BOO.
-6 tin muffin pan.. Yes I love to bake and did not own one! Thank you!
-An Awesome Cupcake, Cookie and Muffin Cookbook to go with it!
- A cute little Pumpkin candle holder!!
- One of those awesome new Cheese graters that measure!
- Beauty and the Beast!!
-Bad Kitten Calander.. Its hilarious.
-New Miche bag cover!!
-Cast Iron pan Woot!
-And Rascal Flatts new album :)
- AND a new pretty :) its a heart diamond pendants with a little heart off to the side with my birthstone <3

From Mom and Dad
- Mini Disney ornaments
- A Very pretty windchimey Mickey ears Ornament..
- A new watch
-A let it snow sign.. (still haven't seen more than an inch :( )
-And a pretty cute little sign that at the moment cannot remember what it says!

Danny made out like a bandit...
-5 Shirts
-1 pair of pants
-new sleep pants
-Madden 11
-The Hangover
-Buccaners Coffee mug
-2 colonges
-Fishing stuff
-Easton Corbin CD

From my parents
-Bib Overalls for hunting..
-Bullets
-Head mask thing for hunting
-Head lamp
( They are going hunting tomorrow haha )

We ended up having a nice Christmas! Had more of Christmas Lunch hahah since danny had to work.. Cooked ham in crockpot that was awesome. It just fell off the bone!! Kinda messed up my rolls.. But they were edible! My pumpkin pie was just a disaster.. haha but thats another story..i'm tired and Danny has to get up REALLY Early so they can go kill some Elk :) Hope all of my blogger friends had a very merry Christmas!!!

~Nicki.. (it can snow any day now.. we do not live in Fl.. It was 60 something degrees today.. INSANE!)

Baby it's cold outside....

Yes..its freezing.. and love it :) Now if we could just get more than a 1/2 inch of snow. There was frost on my car when I left work tonight! And lots of Fog.. That I could do without! Supposedly there is a 60% chance of snow tonight? Then there is a high wind warning tomorrow.. Oh Joy.. please dont blow away my inflatable snow man and Tigger!!!


Christmas.. Has turned out to be good this year. We scrounged up a bit :) and Danny got spoiled. Hahah This is probably the most I've ever bought him.. And there is so much more I can think of!!! At least Valentines and His Bday is coming up! Mine too..

Monday we're going to my Parents since we can't think of any other time to go up to get our gifts. I work Christmas eve so does Danny and I'm off Christmas.. But he's not. Its lame. So i'll be by myself Christmas day :( Oh well.. Gotta work to pay those bills!

Trying to get a hold of the money thing.. Argh.. It just never ends!!! I REALLY want to start treatments either Mid January.. or Feb... I feel like my lap was wasted.. I need to get my records from Dr. R.. But gotta finish paying the bill first. Ugh.. I STILL haven't gotten a Pap smear.. that was due in September.. Whoops... This time of year is so hectic and money draining.. it sucks.

I'm pretty sure I swear every year to start Christmas Shopping Early.. And never do! Maybe I should take note of what I didn't buy this year.. and get it for next year! Hah thats a smart Idea. Then I wouldn't have to keep asking.. What do you want.. or they need to come up with and App that lets you keep a running list of gift ideas you constantly think of. Damn I'm smart sometimes ;)

Work.. has been very exaughsting.. BUT I must say sex has been better since stopping treatment and just going with the flow.. BUT Its still there in the back of my mind little stressful thinking of did we BD at the right time? Did I Ovulate? Argh. I hate my brain.. When it gets going it just does NOT stop. It drives me insane. I swear i'm mental. Danny's job has gotten more stressful.. He's trying not to bring it home but it's there. Oh well.. such is life.. Other than that been doing Alright. All my Christmas deocrations are up.. Shopping is done, Cards have been sent :) Just waiting for the day I get to see what I got..I was a good girl this year.. and didn't see what I got ... except I know one thing *lmao* Thats Danny's fault. I sent him a pic of a shirt I liked in Old Navy.. and he left the hanger on the couch after he wrapped ;) Dork.

Do you know how much it sucks to shop with the person your buying for.. AND by yourself? It sucks alot. Next year I must have better planning.... UGH. I still have the shopping bug.. But I want to get stuff for me.. But we are BROKE until Thursday.. oh joy.. But I figured I'd check in and let you all know.. who read this anyways.. That I haven't fallen off the face of the earth :) Just busy!

Ohh I have to find time to bake somewhere....need to do a few goodie pkgs.. for a few of my coworkers because they are awesome :)!

~Nicki

Snoring....

It's 5:40 am.. wtf? I can't sleep wide awake.. too much junk running thru my brain to get back to sleep.. So here I am trying to type in the dark...(sorry if there is a bunch of typos) and Danny is snoring away in the bedroom!.

Work has been exaughsting...like its rediculous....Spending one day with Danny is starting to suck.. Been considering after the new year changing my days off... BUT this could do one of 2 things...

- Get my hours cut....because i'm 'not available'
- Or make me go Part time.. which is less hours.

It could be a loose loose siutation... Not to mention I'd be off Sundays...That would leave 2 people to work on sundays instead of 3.. Ugh I hate being the bad person but it's taking a toll on our relationship because we hardly see each other! This blows and I can't make up my mind!!!

As far as Christmas this year.. we have some how managed to scrounge up some money for our Christmas.. we will be going shopping in a few hours.. And I cannot think of a single thing to get him... Which is another reason i'm sitting here awake.

Danny just woke up and asked if I was ok.. Hahah I've been out here a total of 9 minuets *lmao* His body knows apparently when I get out of bed. I guess I'll try to go back to bed , Which could be bad because... I could end up with a headache.. Oh well..