For Real...

Seriously. I'm kind of glad that I am no longer friends with Stacey. I think she has gone off the deep end.. I am almost NEVER on twitter. The one time I decide to look around on it.. I see the lovely comment about How a certain someone should stop trying to get to her son through her family and to stay the fuck away..  Well here's and interesting thing. I Ran into her sister the same day she posted this.. all I said was Hi how are you ( being courteous) and then I went back up to her.. cause well I thought her sister was nice.. and asked her next time she sees Gideon to give him a hug and kiss from us.. cause well we miss him!

Yeah... I don't even know why she would say that... I haven't even talked to her in almost 2 years.. how am I trying to get to him?? I swear. Drama must be needed in order to function. I don't need drama.. I like to be drama free.. Plumbing issues are the extent of all the drama I need in my life. Thank you very much.

So frustrating that she wouldn't even talk to me after the whole ordeal if you would even call it that.. That's what makes me mad the most. It was all one sided because of that bitch that thought she knew everything.

Need to move on and not have this kept being brought up in my life.. The past is the past and there is nothing we can do to change that.. I have a loving husband, a roof over my head and my fur babies and family that love me for me and that's all that matters.

As some people say my hands are washed of this. If I ever run into anyone from her family I will just ignore them.. if they try to reach out.. I'll just ignore that to.

Kinda glad we keep to ourselves most of the time! Its clearly needed!

~Nicki

We've been busy...

To say the least... We have a new shed for one! We started it on February 17th... we JUST finished it last weekend.. Like seriously.. it took FOREVER. Way longer than we wanted.. all thats left is to organize the inside and bring the Christmas out so a munchkin can have a closet :)

 Here's a couple photos!

 The walls.. We thought we were saving time by reusing the side walls.. Come to find out that our shed was 2 5ft sheds put together.. This house I swear.

 Almost all done painting :) and non leaning shed!  Nice and Sturdy :)

 Our deck is finally finished! Just have to stain it when the weather cooperates....Love it!

This was last summer when we did the base of the deck! 

 We found a bunch of stuff under the deck.. including about 20lbs of pink aquarium rocks.

 It was in pretty rough shape.. none of the wood used was pressure treated.. Which is like a no no. 

Anyways.. Happy that the major projects that will affect our home study is all done :) Now just a bunch of little stuff..Painting the nursery and putting down baseboards.. we finally found pieces to match out laminate floor to separate from the carpet.. can't think of the name.

So we haven't heard anything back from the girls at DHS... so hope all is going well. Will be calling on Monday and seeing when we can get some more class materials... We have core classes on Friday and Saturday.. and I need to get set up for CPR. So much left to do!

We are going up to my parents tomorrow because my Sister , Brother in Law and the kids are in town!! So we will stay 3 days up there and Danny's sister will stay here with the fuzzies. Pretty excited cause i'm on vacation for 10 whole days. So needed.. September was my last one!  Too long. As soon as I see how much vacation I get this year i'm putting in for July and September and then i'll probably take one after the new year since I *hopefully* get 3 weeks this year.. depending on average of hours worked.

Right now its currently snowing... and my sinuses are draining which is making me cough and have a scratchy throat... So i'm gonna veg out and find some dinner! Hope you all are well in Blog land!

Just to let you know...

I'm still alive we've been super busy....4 weeks of working outside rebuilding a shed.. Crazy.


All of our paper work is turned in, finger prints done and background check in the works!!!

More soon :) vacation is less than a week away!!!

~Nicki

Random things...

I'm bored.. since I got off at 8 I guess I could update this. Feeling a little unmotivated lately to write.. So a little bit of bullets and maybe a few sentences hahah! Oh and it will probably be all over the place!


~Rocky is turning into such a good boy :) I sat on the floor the other night and didn't get mauled! Except for being Licky Mc Lickerson. He must lick everything!

~Wrangler.. is turning into Mr. Old and Senile...! He is starting not to listen anymore and thinks that he can do everything brother can't.. Dork. Sorry buddy equal treatment here hahah!

~The Kitties.. are being the kitties..not much to report on them!

~ We started cleaning crap.. I was just over it! Everything we were keeping got boxed up and put in the closet, if it wasn't it got sold or thrown out! We got rid of the desk... we just didn't use it. It was huge and bulky.. we can get another if we need one.. although it will be smaller LOL!

~Our couches.. we hate them.. No more squishy couches in this house! Looking at a sectional.. this one is already falling apart and springs are coming out! UGH. Not impressed. New couches and a recliner are in our future.

~Officially done with One Main Financial!

~Disney World 2014 is a GO! We are praying that a munchkin gets to go to!! We will not be purchasing a dining plan this time around.. saving for all food purchases :) looks like it will be the way to go because we will have a full kitchen in the room so breakfast will be eaten there! Except maybe one day.. I will have Mickey waffles ;)

~Probably going Monday to get Finger prints and background done :) ! Need to finish our autobiographies too.

~Umm.. I've gone a little crazy.. With buying things LOL.. We have a crib.. $79 bucks.. down from 168.. And its convertible! Convertible car seat.. was 99 bucks.. got it for 40!! (its for the truck) Got our Travel system (stroller and carseat and base) with BRU trade in event! So on sale there too! Crazy! And other things.. clothes.. and a diaper bag :). Trying not to feel guilty about it.. I know I shouldn't.. but its WEIRD.. Like SUPER DUPER WEIRD!

~So ready to get the new shed up.. looks like we may have a few weeks *crossing fingers* of nice weatehr ahead!

So anyways.. can't remember if I mentioned.. the girl who went with us on our first appt with DHS. Did I mention she was crazy?  She was totally going to do this for the money and just show off the kid..I wanted to smack her.. OH.. and she wanted to get preggo at the SAME TIME!!!! Did I mention she's single? I just didn't understand.. like make my brain hurt. She said we should do our baby showers together.. I was like Um NO. I've waited this long to have one of my OWN.. you are not sharing in that! Tons of people are so happy for us and all want to throw me a shower! Everyone is so happy for us, which makes me feel so loved and overjoyed :).
   Yesterday.. she came up to me and said that she is leaving May 1st and is getting married May 9th. Umm.. Ok? Apparently she is getting back together with her ex boyfriend. She told me she was sorry she couldn't do foster to adopt with us.. (SIGH OF RELIEF) but she doesn't know why she would want to parent some other persons kid anyways... <<< EXACT WORDS. Seriously. Wow really? BUT you are going to be a step mom.. Um can we say calling the kettle black? She is just ALL over the place.. and today she is all i'm getting cold feet yadda yadda.. Of course you are because you have no idea what you want!  She says he's going to give his answer on Saturday.. so umm.. you proposed? She doesn't want to 'uproot' her self and move all the way to Alaska, but yet she loves him..  OMG.. its all so crazy.. She is so self centered and selfish.

Me and Danny have tried for so very long and wanted this so much.. We feel so very blessed having this wonderful support system and cannot wait for our journey to end with a munchkin in our home and hearts!

I guess she sounds crazy to me.. because we know what infertility it is.. and what it means to go thru it.. we still are, but we are at a different place now.  I probably sound horrible for saying this.. but she just isn't meant to be a mom.. She offered for be a surrogate.. just so she could help her self with her enodmetriosis. To me.. she just wants to be a mom to say she's a mom.. Me and Danny want to give  a child unconditional love and teach right from wrong and give compassion to other people and many other qualities you teach a human being.

That is all for now.. sorry its kinda long.. guess I had a lot to say :)

~Nicki

Continuing...

So anyways.. I feel like we are all over the place!! We started filling out paperwork, Danny got all upset over the fact that some of the stuff they need to know... oh well. So there's that. We will fill out some more this weekend :)

Last weekend we went up to Springs, because I needed work pants.. and we wanted to stop at a few places and price baby items. We picked out the Travel system we want, of course.. its not the cheapest but its not the most expensive either! The crib we want is at Wally World its a Broyhill.. the thing about cribs.. there are 500 colors and about 7 different styles that all vary just a smidge.. So why spend 500 bucks or more on a crib that I can get the same one at Wally for 199 and then my discount? Yeah lol its a convertible one just like all the others! So anyways.. we put the bedding on layaway (its Pooh of course :) ) I feel like we are going all over the place! We need to be doing stuff around the house.. but I just want to get everything!

Oi.. LOL Its just crazy this might really be happening! Everything will fall into place I'm sure, its just overwhelming right now.

I feel like everyone is happy for us (well I know they are) But everyone has told me.. people will buy us stuff.. where I don't think they will.. The first child we get  may not be the keeper. My mom really doesn't seem like she will get us anything.. apparently everything I'm picking out is too expensive.. maybe she just doesn't realize how expensive this stuff is??  But she feels like I shouldn't spend too much until we get our forever child? Well it could be the first one! Not to mention any child I have I will spoil rotten :) soo I dunno.. it just seems odd that someone would throw me a shower?  Maybe its just my brain..

Anyways.. there's another update :)

~Nicki

Nitty Gritty.

So.. lets get there.. down to the nitty gritty. We pretty much jumped in head first.. we had talked about it.. but a girl at work gave us the final push!

We are going to become certified foster parents with intent to adopt! Or you could just say Fost-adopt parents :)! We know its going to be a long road, but I don't think it will be as long as the one we're on now. We had a 2 hr. meeting yesterday with 2 DHS ladies, who were so nice! Needless to say it was  like brain overload and I had a huge headache ALL DAY.  I just wanted to sleep.  We got all the paper work to start filling it out and all the classes we need to do.. just have to set some up.

We decided we want just infants ( of course) Maybe later down the line a little older. I don't think we will do anything older than 2. So now..its a whirlwind to get everything we need together! She of course said it can go as fast and slow as we want it. Which is good lol. I'm going to try and stay grounded and keep myself together and not freak out going OMG this needs to be done etc.

So.. I've been looking at baby furniture and all the necessitates we will need to start.. (I'm sure i'll go over board) That's just my nature! The front and back porch are the first things to be done because of course they are SAFETY hazards.

Storage is another biggie I need a storage system in the cats room, were going to sell the huge computer desk and a few other things.

On the phone with my momma so i'll write more later :)

~Nicki

As good as time as any!

To reflect on the year... It was a relatively quiet year on all fronts.. Minus the floor and fires.. We got some things accomplished :)

~We have most of a front porch.. just needs rails then staining!
~ An almost completed spare bathroom just touch ups needed :)
~New carpet!
~No news on the baby front... just a quiet year paying off debts in that department.
~Silly puppy nonsense.. taking 2 vet trips this year for emergency purposes! He thought he needed to eat mole poison and have horrible no good awful come out of his bum.
~Getting the car fixed, and new tires.
~Trip to Disney!! And the start of planning another this September!
~My brother came home for this first time in 6 years for Christmas! We had a wonderful one by the way!

I'm sure there are lots of other little things.. its wasn't a terrible year.. but I do pray that it was the last one with out a little one... I'm not sad to see it go.. Let this new year be a good one filled with joy, peace, love and no hardships!

~Nicki